fucktard, you are 20.
Do you even know how meth is made?
Take a look at the chemicals used to make it, most are Petroleum based.
All of the ingredients taken separately will either put you in the hospital or kill your stupid ass.
It's ruined your life in so many aspects. Really? If this shit doesn't kill you soon or in several years of use, you will develop the shakes much like a person afflicted by Parkinson Disease. These shakes cannot be minimized or cured with any currently known medications, and you will eventually die.
To quote a line out of an Aerosmith Tune, "Life's a Journey, Not a Destination".
Life can be either difficult, challenging or easy, or if you are rich, a walk in the park. I have been so far down in the dumpster, that I thought about cashing it all in. I changed my mind, because I realized that, to quote a line from Jackson Browne, "does it take a clear mind to take it, or a clear mind not to take it.....It takes a Clear Mind To Make It. Meaning Life.
I was facing many things, and was not going to let the bastards win, I had to. I love that corny shit, walks on the beach, I still say "that is so fucking Awesome every time I see the Grand Canyon, or the turquoise water of the Caribbean. You haven't been challenged until now.
Your Greatest Challenge will be walking into a Rehab Center and asking for help. Life is to precious to piss it away man, there is much to do and not enough time to do it all. Life is like a roll of toilet paper, the closer you get to the end of the roll, the faster it goes. Eight now you have years ahead of you instead of wondering how many you have left. Get into rehab. Complete rehab, and then start a new life in a different State away from your "friends" who won't give a fucking rats ass about you when you are dead. Make new friends, get into a Bible based church and surround yourself with Positively motivated people and begin to live. Time is short.
ReHab without delay. You are loosing precious minutes and hours. Meth will fuck your life up in more ways that you can begin to imagine. Good Luck