I'm not a cheating man, but there is one other woman besides my girlfriend I'd fuck if I would have had the chance. She was my old boss and I always had an incredibly deep sexual attraction to her and I know she did for me from day 1. She posed in playboy at one time and she showed me her portfolio and we did go out on a few dates and unfortunately she wanted to jump in the sack the day after my best friend had passed and I wasn't in that state of mind and didn't handle things well.

She took that rejection hard and it kinda killed things there between us. I left for higher paying work and its been a few years. Now she's randomly contacting me but I've been trying hard to stay distant because it brings up all these feelings that I would bend her over and have my way with her again and again.

It's nothing to do with my girlfriend, but this tinge of regret and unresolved feeling like I missed the chance to have some sexual bliss with the archtype sexy girl of dreams. The ones you see in a nudity magazine looking picture perfect and wishing as a young lad that you could get to know better to sew some wild oats. I wasn't sophisticated or knowledgeable at dating back then and handled myself like an idiot.

My girlfriend who is the only girlfriend I've ever had is sexy, smart and has such natural beauty and the sex and love we make is wonderful but she doesn't quite bring out the raw sexual energy, anticipation and the feeling I'm going to orgasm before we even do anything that this woman from my past did.

Of course I type this here because I don't want to ruin things with my girlfriend and I can't talk to my old boss because I'd like to have a cordial relationship but I need to get it out of my system.