I'm not sure which category this fits best in but here it goes.

I am a 46 y/o married man, i've always been attracted to only women, but over the past year or so i've found myself thinking more and more about trying something together with another man, i am not really attracted to men unless it is only to do with touching each other, i am not turned on by the thought of kissing, just to feel him in my hands and to have him touch and feel me.
I can't explain what has made me think of these things as I was always turned completely off by the thought of such things while I was younger. If I could have an opportunity to be together with a man and a woman it would be the perfect scenario for me, especially if she seemed to be turned on by us two men doing things together.
I live in a small town in the Rockies and I doubt that I will ever have this opportunity.