I don't find women attractive. I'm embarrassed about this.. I moved away from my home town years ago, as to be more myself and hang out more freely at gay beats. I like men.. Iv been raped several times at beats. Its something I don't want to say anything about, as I feel its half my fault if not more. I can't help it.thinking about men all the time. I'm not like other men. Iv never been with a girl ever.i said I have but. Girls are gross in a nice way. I love guys in speedos. I love men. I think of naked men all day. I cant get enough men and I deserve to be abused To be abuses at gay beats.. I'm only here for men to get off on me. Iv tried looking at women. Im gay and proud of it. I like being raped, abused and humiliated that's wat I deserve.. Iv done it for over 14 yrs now. Sorry ladies