I'm married. Have been for two years. I met my husband at 28 a few weeks after calling off an engagement with a man I was with for six years. I had caught my boyfriend cheating and angrily broke up with him. while my BF was still trying to get us back together, I met my future husband and was desperate for stability and validation. I got it when we were married in less than a year. My husband is a good man.

I miss my BF. I miss everything about him. And I know how bad this makes me sound as a person but the things I miss most with him is the sex and the tender moments afterwards. He was so good in bed. So good at getting me to be bad. He knew my body better than I did. He could push me to the limits of endurance and afterward cuddle me to sleep. He's also much larger than my husband and as shallow as this sounds, I really am having difficulties being satisfied by my husband's smaller penis. I didn't think of it at first because I was so mad at my BF but I'm finding myself thinking of his big dick more and more and sex with my husband consequently is less and less satisfying.

I didn't realize until it was too late how much I enjoy good sex and how good my old BF really was. He may have been a cheating bastard but he fucked me like no other and I miss it so much it's ruining my marriage. I've been fantasizing about my old BF's big one all the time and about bumping into or calling him. I know if I do and he tries to get me into bed I jump right in with him. Then my life would be a disaster.

I wish I had never found out my BF was cheating or at least handled it better when I did.