My dads half sister was my baby sitter. I had no idea how nasty minded she was than. I knew years later. She breast fed me when mom stopped. She was a large women who lost her children to her husband. He just left one day and took them. I guess this tripped her mind, made her this way. She watched me for years. By 10 I did not want to feed on her any more. She got upset with me and cried. when I did not give in she went the other way.
Sat me in her lap and pulled down my pants. She fondled me and pulled the skin back exposing the tender glands of my penis. Was a very intense feeling and not good. She jerked me off and gave me my first orgasm.

This gave me mixed feelings. Some pleasure and some fear of the feeling. She then told me she would nurse me now. She sucked my penis that day and every day for a long time. She enjoyed laying me on the floor and doing it there. talked me into nursing her breast some while she sucked me.

She stuck my fingers in her vagina and used my hand to masturbate. She washed my hand before and after. finally sticking my entire hand inside her. she told me the spots to rub as she laid there. She never put my cock in her but she never stopped the masturbations and oral sex. in summer I was there all day, was there after school every day and all day Saturday. By the time I had an ejaculate I found this erotic and pleasurable. then I ask her for the oral sex, I took charge and fingered her. Played with her very large breast. I wanted to have sex by age 13 and she agreed. Now I did not think of beign with her as bad. It was pure pleasure.

She played with my mind as a child and this carried over with time and age. Today I know this as child abuse. She is dead and I never told anyone what happened.