Im a poofter boy ladies...Not into women, I'm not like other guys.. I'm embarrassed and confused... I love men...I'm gay..and know one knows..I feel ashamed at times and hang out at gay beats all night/day if have to, to be abused..and treated like a poofter I am, I'm a secretly loving cock sucker.. I feel bad some times.. I'm not normal.. I'm constantly thinking of men. How do I tell people this.. I like to hang out at beats for guys.. I feel I deserve to be abused for the fact I do it.. I never use condoms.. I have sex with strangers oldermen... iv been raped a few times at beats.. Im a gay man toilet cock sucker.. I feel i m here to service men.. its a secret.. I love men.. I can't stop thinking of men's bulges ow.. I'm going to public toilet now, I'll sit for hours and do many guys... I feel as if I'm relieving men's stress by doing a service.. cause I deserve to be punished.. I'm sick...I'm a male to be abused by other males.. I don't know or how to get sexually excited over girls.. yukky lol..