I'm not happy with anything anymore. My boyfriend makes me miserable. Things haven't been the same between us in a long time. He constantly makes me cry, I don't trust him at all(living an hour apart from each other doesn't help), every little thing he does makes me mad, I'm not sexually attracted to him anymore, I use him for his weed. I don't have the balls to leave him though. He's my first boyfriend and my first true love. Fuckkk I just need to get out before I go insane. But I'll always have love for him in my heart.