For several years I have been struggling with my husband's decision to have another woman in his life. She is 21 years my junior, and fertile. She has had two children with him and she is going to have a third. What turns him on to her is all these babies. I had two, which I did not want, I did not want children or the responsibilities of children and had them under pressure from my husband and my own mother. This woman willingly gives herself to have his children, the more the happier he is and she is. I simply do not understand how she can just keep producing children, and much less with a man that is so much older than her. But she does and I have had to accept that she is going to be part of his life and as long as he wants to keep her pregnant she is going to stay pregnant. She started late because of economic circumstances and because she is an immigrant and only when she found my husband that can support her and all those children did she embark on her mission to repopulate the world. She pulls up her shirt to show me her swollen abdomen and takes my hand to rub her. She wants me to rub her abdomen with creams and oils so that I can feel the baby. It is bad enough that I have to watch her get bigger, that I have to babysit the two she has. I don't want to have that much to do with all that. Why he can't just put her up in a house of her own I don't understand, she is go big I can't see what he finds attractive in her anyway.

My whole house has been turned into a nursery, when my children were small I spent less time taking care of them that I find myself taking care of these urchins. It is an all day responsibility. I am seriously thinking about going back to work, I didn't sign up to take care of small children and an ever pregnant woman. There will be three children under the age of four in my house come summer.