my life is so messed up about this, i posted a few days ago about partying and sexting with a friend but it turned out to be my father--actually step dad. at first it was just totally gross and i no way wanted it, but there was this person that posted and thought it was hot, then it kind of just really stuck in my mind.

i so know this is totally sick and twisted, but i cannot stop thinking about it now. i'm really starting to want it to happen.

i don't want to cheat my mom with my dad, but if i could like be in it with both of them it's not cheating. unless i can get this out of my head, i've pretty much decided i'm going to try this weekend when they are together.