If u loved him u wouldn't have done it tell him before he finds out from someone he will
Stop lying to yourself you wanted it to happen otherwise it would'nt have happened would it?.
you need to find a real men who can and could fuck you for real, and knows how to fuck you hard , deep and make you wet very wet. stop fucking with young boys and fuck a older male.
Your story is nothing new, most women do the same thing you have done some time in there life, mostly when they're drunk or high on weed or some drug.... even Eve got talked into having sex with the serpent(AKA anunnaki, angel, god, alien)when she belonged to adam! so the actions of eve are on all women of the world...