I am approaching middle age of 40. I was first introduced to sex as a preteen when my brother and his friend use me to dry hump. Eventually they both had sex with me. When I was 18 a mall cop who worked security prevented me from leaving one night and had sex with me in the back of the mall office. He got me pregnant, but I was able to get an abortion which he paid for in return for me keeping my mouth shut. At 26 I was working in payables in an office and I became the center of attention of the head of the warehouse and again I found myself in a sexual situation. I kicked him hard afterwards, right in the nuts, but that did not take away that he had already had sex with me. He chased me and he had sex with me two other times, once at my apartment and once in the bed of his pick up. He finally left me alone when a new girl came to work in purchasing. Right now I am the lover of a married man who has a wife and three kids and she is a total bitch. He comes over when he can, and has sex with me and sometimes we sit and watch tv and then he goes home to that bitch. Right now I wish I had kept that baby, at least I would have somebody to love and that would love me. I am seriously thinking about just getting pregnant. When he comes over the only thing on his mind is having sex, it doesn't matter what else I am doing. Why not just get pregnant from him and at least I will have someone of my own.