I am a married straight male who has been crossdressing since my teens. I have stopped many times - for years at a time, but keep coming back to it. I so love the feel of women's lingerie - and have also worn a blouse and skirt - though not outside of the house. For the past year I have been fantasizing about sucking a guy's cock - one of my best friends in fact. And I want to do this so badly and do so while in my panties, but am scared of what he might think. But I need to try this - sucking a cock, but am also afraid that once I experience it that is all I will ever want.