For almost two years I have have been demeaning myself to satisfy my exhibitionism. I live alone in a small rowhouse in Chester, Pa. and during this time have not only exposed myself to eighteen females but have also allowed them to watch me masturbate. I have never had sex with any of them but am amazed at their willingness to enter my house knowing I am always naked. It started with only two women I had met at a local bar, both about 22, one white and the other hispanic. I purposely let them thunk I'm mentally defecient and at the start let them know I always have plenty of beer, wine and whiskey at my house. The two of them began coming frequently and only a month or so went by when they began bringing other girls with them who obviously didn't believe what they had told them about me. Out of all these girls there are only four that I find very attractive and the rest of them are very heavy or homely looking. They say some very derogatory things and in some cases treat me like an imbicile without realizing how satisfied I am being naked in front of them. There are only two Asian girls and the rest are black, white and Hispanic. They stay for hours at a time and normally there are as few as two or three here but sometimes as many as six or seven especially on Saturdays. Early last year one of the black girls began spanking me and since then I have submitted to it many times with quite a few of them, which I never planned on but found I also enjoyed the way I am diplayed to them. The more I let them belittle me the more exciting it has gotten. There are seven of them who often masturbate me and about nine months ago the same girl who started the spankings began inserting a vibrating dildo in my rectum as one of the other girls were jerking me off. It is like a joke to them how I submit but extremely satisfying for me. I go to the beer distributor and liquor store every week spending quite a bit but it is well worth it to me. One of the girls is only 19 and I think the rest are all in their early twenties. I know all their names but pretend to forget and purposely say dumb things letting them think I am stupid. I actually have a good job in Philly and visit my parents in Wilmington often. My parents want me to move out of Chester because of the neighborhood I live in. Of course they don't know what goes on at my house and I'm to content to move out.

A couple nights a week two or more of the girls come here and Saturday is the best because at different times day and night I never know who will show up or how many, but know they will. Sometime a few even stay overnight but again, I never try to have sex with them and none have ever offered to sleep with me. I'm content haveing them masturbate me and enjoy them spanking me. I have also relized how arousing it is when they use the vibrator to penitrate my anus. This is something else I never thought of or planned on. Two of the girls get a little carried away when they spank me but I just put up with it and at the same time let them know they are hurting me which usually slows them up. They are both heavy black girls so I imagine they like whipping white ass and the one, is the one who intoduced both the spankings and the vibrator. Sometimes I end up with a black and blue rear mostly when a lot of them spank me the same day or many times when one or two of them use a belt. They all think they are taking advantage of me and I suppose they are in a way but I truly enjoy it. Some I can count on coming every week but it seems five of them only come once a month or so. Six live right in my neighborhood but I never really ask where any of them live and don't know very much about any of them. Over time most of them have become more dominant with me and its hard to express how arousing it is for me when I am humiliatingly exposed. Often I lay on my dineing room table in various positions and am being masturbated by one of them while another iserts the vibrator in me. As this is going on there are sometimes five to six other girls watching. This is the height of arousal for me and I try not to ejaculate right away. THe entire time this is going on all the girls are giggleing and bacically insulting me with their remarks. What they don't know is how utterly satisfying it is to me and my indifference to what they think of me. I never give them any information about my job or any of my personal life. I guess I have turned into one sick SOB but I cant't come close to explaining how this turns me on so much. Its a fetish that continues to grow and recently there are two more girls who began coming two weeks ago. They have been here three times but have not yet participated doing anything to me and only watch. My X wife would have heart failure if she knew what I am doing.