i feel weird i have a crush on a female doctor and afraid to go back to see her for the next date. she is everything I wish I was her voice is smooth and she has to be super clever. I want to protect her from getting into trouble but I also am happy to help her be with a man she likes. I am not a lesbian but happy to help get her husband back if she is in trouble?? if she say to me that then I would help only cuz my dumb life and dreams are over. I wish she could help me really. if she likes this very young male magazine model I talk about or any other man I would help her but I think she knows I will try to stop her getting cancer coz i am protective like that. if she just say give a sign of her needs. as much as i love her man I know I am not good enough for him. I want to fight her for him with all I have cuz I want him so badly but look at me the dog I am. i can only help others now because my time for love is over. once you are 40 its all over with love and sex. and I am slowly becoming a drug addict in a hovel. sorry I couldn't be what you wanted. I want to fight them all for you ... or her or anyone but I have given up on me. I am 45 and butt ugly old. my time is over my chances are over. they named a restaurant after me for masturbating on windows for those elite politicians then shoved a plane through the building. i guess that is all the love a dog like me needs... look at all the trouble i have caused in my short pathetic life.