I made a huge mistake and I can't tell anyone. I can only talk about it here.

I was dating a total asshole. I was going through a rough time of my own, but he was only making it worse. We would both drink a lot at his place and then end up arguing and fighting and screaming. One night, at like midnight, I was so drunk and angry I just stormed out of his place and started walking.

It took fifteen minutes for me to realize I was in a bad part of town, walking aimlessly. I tried calling my sister on my cell, but couldn't get her. The next number under hers was my best friend, so I called her. I drunkenly explained what had happened, and she said she'd come get me. I told her where I was, and she said she'd be right there.

I'm embarrassed now that I called her. She was seven months pregnant and here I am calling her to come to a bad part of town in the middle of the night because I'm dumb and drunk and stupid. It's one of two reasons she won't talk to me anymore.

The other reason is that her husband is the one who came and picked me up. He wouldn't let her drive there and turns out she was on bed rest. So he comes and he picks me up and he's obviously mad. I apologized like a million times, and was trying to explain what an asshole my boyfriend was. I was so drunk and distraught I started hanging on my friend's husband, whining and crying about my boyfriend. He didn't say a word or even move.

All of a sudden, I just got an urge to kiss his neck. I started kissing his neck and he pushed me away. He asked me what I thought I was doing. I remember being like "come on, stop being a pussy" and I went back like a hundred times to try and kiss his neck. He kept pushing me off and finally pulled over and told me to stop it.

So what did I do?? I laughed and laid back the seat and pulled my shirt up and showed him my boobs. They aren't big at all. They're barely handfuls, so I have no idea what I was doing. He fucking stared at them though, and I started getting really horny. Just like that.

I unbuttoned my shorts and he was telling me to stop. I pulled them down and turned over so he could see my ass in my thong. My ass is amazing, I'm not going to lie, and I told him he could touch it. He didn't, though. He just kept telling me to put my clothes on stop it.

He started driving again and tried to ignore me, so I just crawled over the console and stuck my face in his lap. He started pulling my hair to get me off of him so I started unzipping his pants. He pulled over again and just as he did I reached in and grabbed his dick and he totally had a boner!

I was laughing so hard that I couldn't think straight. He was cussing me and trying to get his dick back in his pants. When he leaned up to try and get his pants up, his dick went straight up in the air and I just totally leaned over and GLOMP! I swallowed it so deep I started gagging. He started trying to push me off him but then he started fighting less and less. I was still a laughing, but the more I sucked his cock and the more he moaned the more I started getting into it. He started grabbing my ass while I sucked his cock and then he stuck a finger between my legs and right into my pussy. His dick was getting bigger and harder and like a total fucking retard I turned around and stuck my ass in his face.

Dude totally started licking my asshole and playing with my pussy. I was retarded drunk so I kept begging him to fuck me. Right there on the side of the road he climbed up and started fucking me from behind totally hard. My face was hitting the door he was banging me so hard, and I was laughing.

I don't know why I did but I grabbed my phone off the floorboard and kicked it on. I flipped to my camera and stuck it underneath us and filmed his dick pounding into my pussy, and then over my shoulder so I could see his face while he fucked me. He didn't even notice.

When he got close to coming he told me he was going to cum in my face. I tried to fight against it but he yanked me over by my hair and I just started licking on the head. I was so fucking drunk that I just let him blast all over my lips and tongue and teeth and chin, and one shot went right up and hung off the tip of my nose. He just zipped up and went back to driving, and I laid in the passenger seat and tried to rub my pussy to come, but I couldn't.

He dropped me off and I immediately texted his old lady the video. They aren't together anymore and neither of them will talk to me. I've stopped drinking and I'm totally sorry about all of it, but I figured you guys might want to hear about how fucked up I am.