So I'm an out gay man but a lot of people assume I'm straight when we first meet. I don't really have a lot of the stereotypical attributes many people think of when they hear "gay man." It's not an act, I'm not trying to pass, I'm totally cool with being gay.

BUT - my secret fantasy is that I want to be a total flaming sissy FAGGOT. I want to be used and humiliated by a big, strong, daddy-type man.

I also love to crossdress. I'm wearing a white dress, white garter belt and white fishnet stockings, and sparkly silver heels right now, alone in my apartment. I want to dress up for a man and get fucked like a woman.

I want to be a girly girl and please my man. I'd also love to be with a daddy type, again, as daddy's little girl. I want to dress up in knee socks and a little skirt while daddy makes me feel special.

I want to go to a party dressed like a sexy girl wearing a garter belt and stockings with high heels. A long hair wig and full makeup. A snug, slutty dress that's way too short and shows off my ass cheeks, while my package is stuffed into a thong.

Just to be clear, I'm not trying to hide the fact that I'm a man. I'm not trying to pass as a women. I love seeing pictures of hot men with stubble and chest hair wearing women lingerie. I want to be a sissy faggot not a real women.

So I'm at this party and I get led over to a couch and my dress is pulled up and some hot stranger is nailing me from behind. Soon a crowd gathers and everyone's watching me get fucked by lots of different guys. Various bits of clothing are askew or gone altogether, my wig is off and makeup smeared.

All these guys unload in my ass and I am a total slut. And everyone knows me and knows my name and who I am - I'm totally humiliated.

Or, I'm in prison and a gang wants to rape me. I stop them and say "I can make this real good for you if you let me . . . " and they gang is into it and I get gang banged by five big black guys, all blowing loads up in me while I'm sucking cock. And then that's my role in prison and getting gang banged is a regular thing.

Of course these are all fantasies and I would be too scared / freaked out to be in any of those scenarios. But I do love dressing up in women's lingerie! I am a transvestite. That sounds so fucked up and creepy and wrong and sexy and hot to type that!!!