QUOTES MAYBE NOT WORD-FOR-WORD. After all, all happened last week

My whole life I've identified as straight.

So you might be wondering "what is the point of this story"
The point is, here at 26-years old, I JUST now lost my virginity, and...it was to another guy. But I have never in my life felt sensations like that, and now, for lack of a better way to express it, I am CRAVING more of it.

The story begins with this guy I met last Thursday in a small social gathering with my friend Amanda.

Anyway, the gathering was nothing big- just a bit of music and some drinking at one of Amanda's friend's houses. It was only about 8 people out there, and I knew half of them. I'm not a huge drinker, but I like music, so it was chill.

I'd decided to go inside to get a drink out of the fridge, and through the den on the way to the kitchen, I discovered a couple of guys playing Xbox. HELLO, THIS was my domain. I noticed the game to be Metal Gear Rising. Double sweet. "Hey this is Metal Gear" I said, standing and watching. There were two guys there, one black guy playing, and one white guy watching. The white guy responded to me with a "Yep! You know this!" Equally happy to find something of interest I answered "Yeah dude, I love games." I scuttled to the kitchen, got my drink, and hurried back to them.

The black guy barely said a word, but it was alright- he was intensely focused on playing. The white guy who was watching said his name was Adam (not really, but to protect myself, I'll just use that name). Very clean, very mannered, casually dressed with a tee-shirt and blue jeans. Turned out to be the cousin of the guy's house we were currently visiting.

The three of us occupied ourselves with game talk for quite a while, when Amanda came through the door looking for me. For a while, I'd almost completely forgotten that other people were outside. Wanting to know if I was ready to leave because she had things she wanted to go do, Adam offered up the suggestion that he'd give me a ride later if I wasn't quite ready to leave quite yet. Me being relaxed and enjoying a little company for a change, decided it was a good idea. Amanda left us to our devices.

Shortly after she left Adam asked me out loud "Was that your girlfriend"
I felt a little embarrassed at the question because I rarely talk about crushes, but I simply answered with "Oh, nah, I don't really date girls."
"Me neither" he said. We continued watching the other guy play the game.

Oh God. If only I'd known how a little ambiguous statement like that would change my life forever.

It had to be 10 PM before we all got a little tired. I hated to break up the fun we were all having, but I told Adam that it was getting a little late for me cause I had work the next day. It was no big deal for him though, so we finally left.

When we got to my house, he wanted to know if he could come in for just a bit to see my gaming rig. During discussions earlier, I'd told him I had a bunch of games. Even though it was getting late for me though, against my better judgment, I agreed. I knew I had work the next day and needed rest, but it was a good night so far, and I'd made a new friend. A few extra minutes wouldn't hurt.

I brought him back to my room and showed him my set-up. My Xbox One, 360, and Wii are all centerpiece and my good 32" flat screen sits proudly on my display. Adam shifted through some of my games and seemed pleasantly surprised at some of my A-list titles. I knew I had a new gaming buddy here. Awesome!

After he'd seen all he had to see, he got ready to leave my room, but then stopped and paused, looking me in the eyes. I felt something awkward that very second, and then he muttered "You know, you're cute as hell" and put his hands on my waist.

I froze. What did I just hear?? And what was this electrifying jolt I'd felt surge through my body with him holding on to me. I'd NEVER been told that, even by girls, and then this was sprung on me suddenly, out of nowhere, by a guy I did not know, and had just met. Letting it all process, I broke away from his grasp and just responded calmly with "Oh, I'm not like that..." Everything seemed to crash at that part. This guy who I had befriended turned out to just be gay. He then made himself clear though.

"Oh. You said earlier you don't date girls, though. I didn't know, my bad." It dawned on me just want an incredibly ambiguous statement I'd made earlier. "I can still come by though right, I'm really sorry, man."

It was so strange. I don't know if it was because I'd never been touched intimately by anyone ever, but I couldn't deny it, it was arousing. An erection was forming, and my heart was racing extremely fast. What in the world was happening to me...

"Yeah we're fine, I mean no big deal" I said, looking away from him, frozen stiff (in more ways than one).

I couldn't believe this. I was rock hard. It was a guy, I wasn't even attracted to him. Was it just years of pent up frustration of having my virginity; a kind of desperation to release those frustrations with the first person who was willing to go that extra mile with me?? These are the only guesses I had and have, as nothing else made sense. Adam then asked me "Do you at least wanna try it??" I couldn't speak, I couldn't say anything.

He walked forward, put his hands on my waist again, and then put his face to mine, dipping his tongue in to my mouth. Oh God. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to hold him back, do something mutual. But I didn't know what to do. He pressed against me more, and eventually I found myself on my back on the bed, with him on top of me, kissing me.

I have never in my life experienced these sensations. My body was hot, I was hot, everything was hot. It didn't take long for me to give in; I understood everything completely. This was me taking what I could get. No it wasn't a girl, no I wasn't attracted really, but someone was finally showing interest in me and my body, and that was a huge turn on. I didn't care that it was a guy, I NEEDED to be touched and admired by someone. I was ready to surrender everything to him.

We fumbled and kissed so long, that I lost track of when we became naked. My skin touching his, our embraces so strong and yet so gentle. It took a while before I came to my collective senses. And when I turned my head and looked along the contours of his body, I saw it. A penis. The first besides my own I'd ever seen. It wasn't big, it wasn't ugly, it wasn't anything. It was just... it. A penis.

But before I could process what I was seeing, he suddenly started kissing my chest, and working his way down. It wasn't long before I felt my own penis surrounded by warmth and moisture. He was giving me my first blowjob. Oh my God.

It was unlike anything I'd ever experienced. It certainly didn't feel like my hand. And I didn't have to work for it, I could relax. It was THE MOST amazing thing I have EVER felt. The only thing I could do was lay there and let it happen. I don't know how many times Adam had done it before, but even to my virgin body, it felt like he definitely had practice and experience from somewhere. For all I actually know, it was his first blow. Though considering how hungrily he went for my privates, I seriously doubt it.

I let out a couple of grunts in the process and I know I whispered "Oh my God" and "Jesus Christ" some time during as well. My goodness, he was going to town down there. Then I felt a twitch of sorts, and my penis convulsed. I was getting close to that point. My heart started racing harder than it had the whole night and I reached for air, anything I could grab. Holding onto Adam's arm, I let out a prolonged exhale of breath as my lower muscles started pulsating. I tried my best to hold it as long as I could, but all it took was an "Mmmm" from Adam and all my juices came shooting out into his mouth. Was he really doing this, was he really allowing me to ejaculate my body fluids inside of his mouth?? How was he not disgusted at this- and yet, there he was down there, licking and sucking away at each pulse of my penis, until it was drained. All over I felt relieved, amazed, and down-right sexy. I can't explain it but I felt SEXY. Desired. This guy was willing to pleasure me in ways nobody else had ever been willing to pleasure me. I felt special, I felt wanted. And I felt good. God knows I felt good. My penis must have twitched for a good minute completely after the fact before settling down, and I laid there soaking up every bit of the euphoria.

Adam had gotten up and left the room headed towards my bathroom across the hall, initially for what I don't know, but my guess would be to spit my contents. He did not swallow, I'd noticed. As he was in the next room, I just laid there, letting the reality sink in of what just happened. The more I thought about it, the less guilty I felt. I actually just DID NOT care. I wanted it so bad, I didn't care. I happily smiled to myself and just kept saying "oh my gosh" to myself over and over like a happy little school girl.

Adam soon came by to my room and sat beside me on the bed
"You liked it??" he asked. I was extremely embarrassed. As good as it felt, I could not bring myself to openly say it. I let it be enough to say "M-hmmm". Adam then gave a wide grin and put his hand on my bare leg. He then asked me bluntly "Have any oil or something, I didn't see anything in the bathroom."

Suddenly I froze again. Oil... Was he really planning on....??
"Like what kind" I asked, sitting up, reaching for my underwear. I wanted to get them on. He was wanting to go too far. Before I did though, he stopped me with "What do you jack off with.. You do it raw??" I stood up and pulled my underwear up on me. I felt safe. "Just lotion or something" I said with a very shaken voice. As I reached for my pants though, he grabbed them. "Wait, show me" he said. My heart sank. The blowjob was fine, what else could he be wanting from me... the only thing involving oils and lotions I could think of...

Embarrassed and in my underwear with a naked guy behind me, I showed him the shelf in my bathroom with all the lotions, creams, oils etc. A lot of the stuff I don't use, but my mother does when she's around, which is almost daily. I didn't get to show him much though- when I moved a bowl full of cotton pads aside on the shelf, he saw all he needed to see. "Oh Hell yeah" he said, grabbing it.

A jar of Vaseline. I used it occasionally for dry knees and elbows, and sometimes my feet, which do get pretty rough, especially on cold days.

Adam raced back to my room quicker than I did. I straggled behind, slowly, scared out of my mind. I was about to graduate from that blowjob. I was about to have sex. Real, raw sex. With a guy. I did not plan to lose my virginity this way.

He sat on my bed and opened the jar, me standing there probably looking stupid and puzzled. Expecting to put some on my penis, I stepped forward ready to get some, but then... he started applying it to his own penis. It didn't sink in immediately, but once it did, I swear I could have felt my heart just jump out of my chest. If he was covering his own dick in that, he was wanting to be the one inserting things. Oh God.

But I didn't know what to say or what to do. I didn't know how to stop it.

Never being in a sexual situation before, let alone a gay one, I just asked. "We going to do something...??". "Yeah" Adam answered me. "Come here". I walked over to Adam, every step seeming to take an eternity. "Turn around" he said. I obediently did so, as he sat there on my bed in full command of the situation.

It wasn't long before I felt my buttocks being grabbed. I know I had to be blushing deep down. As much as a black male can blush, anyway. Then I felt Vaseline being applied by his finger around my hole. JESUS he was preparing me. He got a bigger glob in his finger, and inserted it a bit into me, running it around inside of me. Paralyzed but unable to fight it, I just let him. Almost as quickly as it started, he was done prepping me.

I already knew what he wanted. I was standing there with my butt to his face (he was still sitting and I was standing). But to confirm it one last time, I asked. "So you want me to sit..." His response, as usual, was blunt and succinct. "Yep".

I couldn't back out now. I was prepped, and this guy just did me the favor giving me oral. This WAS going to happen. I began to lower myself without looking back, and he said "Hold up". I guess preparing himself more, or trying to guide. "Alright" he said, and I began slowly lowering myself again.

I don't know how long or big he was, I didn't make it a point to look or study that hard, but I won't forget the moment the tip of his penis touched the outsides of my hole. Confirming it's placement, I slowly applied pressure onto it, feeling all the thick Vaseline paste slide along with it, and then the head was inside of me.

The more I sat was the more worried I became. Especially when I felt a bit of pain. I quickly shot up off of him. "I can't do that, it hurts" I said. But he was strong and adamant. "Just do it". After resting a moment, I sat down slowly again, making it a point to get it past the point inside of me that it previously was. With a little pain, it reached that point, and began slipping in deeper, then reached a point where it was REALLY easy. My descent seemed to take ages, how much dick did this guy have, or rather, how much ass do I have?? Either way, I just felt it dig deeper and deeper into my cavities, until after what seemed like FOREVER, my buttocks made contact with his lap. Just barely, but I could feel his skin.

Soon, I was sitting on him completely, full pressure. I wasn't having to hold myself up anymore, it was full gravity. I was on this guy's lap and he was dug inside of me. DEEP DEEP inside of me. And as I relaxed and gave my full weight onto him, relaxing my body, a deep satisfaction rushed over me. Not only did this feel good to me, I know it felt great to him too.

Just sitting there on him, Adam laughed again. I was somewhat ashamed but I knew it was fine. He was training me so to speak. "Alright, work me then". I just sat there on him. "Work me, come on." He was wanting some motion.

I raised myself up off of him, feeling his penis slip out of my butt. I didn't want it out of me, quite honestly. That thing felt good as hell in there. Wanting to reclaim it, I slowly sat back down on him again, full pressure in his lap, this time swaying my butt left and right trying grasp every inch. "Haha, you're alright, just keep working me" he said. I obeyed.

Over time I picked up a little speed, though I wasn't super bouncing on him like I've seen girls do in some pornos, but I think he was understanding of it, seeing as it was my first time. A few times I felt some pain though, but overall the feeling was absolutely great. I let go of all in inhibitions and worked him, just as he asked. And a thought came to my head. When guys joke about their butts being "Exit Only" and say things like "What guy would want something up his butt", how many would say that if they tried it?? I remembered only a day before feeling the same way and saying those same things, but now that I was trying out some dick for myself, it was actually extremely enjoyable.

Adam let out some small chuckles, grunts and other sounds of approval during my performance, but then his breathing got heavy. I just kept on working him, until he verbally told me to stop. So I did. All he said was "Damn. Alright, do it again." I picked it back up again.

In no time flat after that, I felt his body tensions change. I didn't even have to ask him what was going on. He was ejaculating. But it was strange, I didn't feel it. Are anal ejaculations supposed to have feeling?? I thought there'd be some hot surging flow of fluid deep inside of me, but none happened. All I know is his body went limp as I worked out all his semen into me. He gave a final "oooooo" and I sat down on him completely again, full pressure.

Dodging any embarrassing words, I stated him "Soooo, that's was what you wanted" . "Yeah" he answered me. "You got some good ass". I felt hot and completely embarrassed. He reached around the front of me as I sat on him, and grabbed my penis, stroking it.

That went on for a good 15 or so minutes before I came one last time. It was so fucking amazingly hot. I was more or less just on his lap though, his penis was no longer the hard instrument deep within me that it was before.

Finally I got up so he could go clean his hand. I quickly redressed, and then he came back, redressed and left, but not before some kisses, leaving me completely euphoric.

I never thought it would happen- me and a guy. Especially for my first time. But I know one thing- sure beats feeling alone and undesired. He knows where I live, but he hasn't come back this week ever since then. This is how I lost my virginity, and I don't regret it, it felt amazing. I just don't want it to be the last time... if he showed up at my door right now I'd damn near RIP the pants off of him.