my boyfriend is a sex maniac. To hold his desire I pretend to be one my self. I fake orgasms when he fucks me to make him feel good. I want to ride him, he wants to be on top. he sucks my clit and does it far to rough. I jump around and he thinks it feel great.
I get dry from the time we have sex. he thinks this is good thing. I just get sore and tired. He loves blow jobs, I give him as many as I can. Makes him not want sex as much.

My last boyfriend, no my sex partner was almost forty five. We had sex and I got all the pleasure. he finished at the end when I had exhausted everything. he knew what I and I guess what a woman likes. No rough stuff and he made love to me, not just a fuck. oral sex made me jump and moan, not from pain but pleasure. he was a lover not a fucker.

we have talked of love marriage and children. I don't want to live like this for my life time. I want my old lover back and I want him for my life time. I want to be enjoyed and not punished.