Ok, I'm still a kid. I'm 12 years old. Ever since I was about 5 I knew I was a sissy. My parents let me grow my hair really long and I got teased a lot and people said I looked like a girl but what they don't know is that made me tingle inside and I liked it. In fact I love being embarrassed when people laugh at me for being girly. I always dress like a girl for Halloween, last Halloween I was a fairy princess.

I am not a girl and I don't want to be a girl. I'm a boy, I like having a penis. I just like being a sissy and I like both guys and girls so I'm bi. Don't tell me I'm gay or that I have to pick. My dick gets just as hard looking at naked pictures of guys as it does when I look at naked pictures of girls. I like both period.

Some of my friends kind of know or suspect I'm bi but I never really told anyone. They just tease me about how pretty I am and how I'm going to make some boy a nice girlfriend. If only!

The thing is I like older guys. Not elderly, just older, like in their 20s or 30s. Last summer when I was 11 I dressed up like a girl and went to the mall and walked around like I was a girl just for fun. But I forgot and walked into the men's room to take a leak and this guy grabbed me. He was in his 30s and he pulled me into the handicap stall and put his hand on my mouth and told me that I better not scream. I shook my head and he took his hand away. He asked how old I was and I said 11 and he asked why I was in the men's room and I said because I'm really a boy and I forgot that I should have used the girl's bathroom. He laughed and reached up my dress and felt for my dick and it was hard. He asked if I ever got a blow job before and I shook my head and I started to get excited. He then said he was going to suck me off and that I needed to be really quiet. He said if I cooperated he would make me feel good. If not he would beat the crap out of my and then tell the police I was a bad girl going into the men's room to be a hooker. I only half believed him mostly thinking about that blow job he promised.

So he lifted up my dress and pulled off my panties and sucked my dick and if felt better than anything ever and he played with my balls and stuck a finger in my ass which hurt a little until I got used to it then that felt great too. It took a while but eventually I came in his mouth. He licked me clean and took his finger out of my ass then told me that we were going to leave the men's room together and I was to call him Daddy if anyone questioned why a little girl was in the men's room. I seemed logical. When we got out into the mall parking lot I was getting nervous that he might try to kidnap me. But he didn't. He just told me that I should meet him at the mall every Saturday dressed like a pretty girl and he would take me into the men's room for a blow job. I only met him one more time and he sucked me off and let me suck him and he came in my mouth and I liked it a lot. But I never saw him again after that.

So that is why I am posting this. I want an older guy that likes sissies my age and don't mind that I have a small dick and will let me suck his dick and fuck my ass. I'm not looking to be kidnapped or hurt (except you can hurt my asshole with your dick) I just want to be raped and a lot. I jerk off all the time with a dildo up my ass and clothespins on my nipples watching porn and all I can think about is getting raped. If you're a girl I like girls too but girls don't seem to be interested in me as much. I have sucked off two boys at school, one my age and one 14 but their dicks are not as big as the one I sucked on last summer and I really miss having a big one in my mouth. If you're a girl, I never ate pussy but I want to learn. I think I would make a good lesbian or a good sex slave.

If you live near me maybe we can meet up but only if you promise to rape me or let me lick you.