I have a pretty fucked up confession i need help with. I am a barely 1egal, in high school, and recently started fucking my 69 year old neighbor.

It is not that can't get laid but girls my age but that it is hard. I am not athletic, i am shy, i have zits, and while i am not considered a loser i am not all that cool either. I have got laid twice before but it involved a lot of alcohol some pot and some pretty ugly chubby girls and got head a few times at parties but i am no stud and the type of girls i get are pretty bottom rung.

When i started messing with Mrs. Dina it was just so easy and problem free. Her husband died a few years back and i often with help her in her garden or if she had a picture she needed hung or a shelf put together, and in return she'd give me a few dollars spending money. We'd often talk when i was there and she'd ask about school, home life, and if i was making progress with girls. She occasionally made an off color jokes of about girls and me "getting the kitty", and she won't tell my mom if i was. But i figured she was just an old crazy harmless hag.

Then one day she asked me to change a lightbulb in her room. I did, and i was still up on the chair, and i asked her to to turn it on so i could see if it worked. But instead she shut the bedroom door and everything went pitch black. Now understand, it is not like i can get down, it is pitch black and i am up on at chair and i'd kill myself getting down in the dark. While i am still in shock she says, "Bruce, you know, in the dark like this you would not even know the difference between me on one of those school girls sucking you off." My mind went blank, i was in total shock. Mrs. Dina who i had known since i was a kid just pretty much asked to suck my cock. I was like a deer in the headlights.

"Bruce, nobody has to know. I won't tell, and you won't tell." It was super awkward and the tension just hung in the air and i was quite honestly I was really fucking creeped out and even grossed out. When i did not respond i heard her voice go real desperate, it was she suddenly was ashamed but took one last try at me. And honestly, she said all the right things to a teenage boy, "Look Bruce, in a minute i will turn on the light, and we will both pretend this never happened. But most teenage boys just want to get off, it they can get a pretty girl sure, but if not any woman's warm and wet mouth is enough for them. The lights are off and you don't even need to look at me, the only thing you need to decide is if you want to go home every night and whack off in your hand or stop by here and make me suck you off. Now before I turn on this light that this talk goes away forever, like it never happened, do you want to cum in my mouth or not, i promise to swallow."

"oh yes, please. Mrs Dina, suck my cock i need it so bad." i said, not believing my own words. If my mom hear me talk to my elders that way shed fucking kill me. It was like i said it without thinking. It was like it was not me, but rather the collection of all my teenage lust. I know this is horrible but I heard my inner mind screaming yes, i have an unlimited cum dump blow job machine and i don't care who she is or how old and ugly she is. All i want to do is use her.

She wasted no time. I was still on the chair which made my cock at face level with her. She had me unzipped and had in her mouth in seconds. And she sucked like a champ. She was way better then drunk and stoned highshcool girls at parties. And true to her word she swallow all my load. It was weird, it was like something came over me and i snapped after she swallowed i got down and got her on the bed and started grabbing her tits and ass, and pussy. I had one thought in my mind and it went like this, "What a slut, she'd let me do anything to her i am so gonna use her and get myself fucked right now." Some how in my mind she stopped being Mrs. Dina and became a tool for me to use. I never felt like this before but i could not stop. I sucked her tits, pulling her top off, they were fat and sagging and rough, but they were tits and she was not protesting like school girls do. I ripped her pants down got my hand in her panties and rubbed the old hairy c**t it was dry about after some spit i got wet and fucking pounded her in the missionary until i cummed up her old c**t. Normally, i'd cum fast but having just been sucked off I got some real good fucking in.

I have since learned i have to be more gentle with her use lube (since she is old) but she has agreed to did me as much sex as i want as long as i don't tell anyone (I don't think she gets that i am legal). I do her bareback since she can't get pregnant and she is clearly clean. So it has been 3 weeks or so and i have fucked her 7 or 8 times, and got head i think nearly everyday, she also gives me oil hand jobs, licks my balls, and she likes to watch me jerk off. So on nights that she is too sore to fuck she lets me literally jerk off on her (and part of her i want).

But honestly, i feel kind of guilty, and it is in a way gross, because she is as old as my grandma and i cum in her and all over her, but she wants it. It is so fucked up. Yet it is free, easy sex, and wow can she suck dick, i bet she gave her husband a heart attack and that is why he is not here. Yes, it is that good.

So, who is using who?? I am using her, or is she using me, or is it both and it is ok?? Help help me out, i am so confused.