Over the last few months i have been going nuts at work and i have been way too stressed out and i had been thinking that a massage would be just the thing i needed to get me out of my slump. So i make an appointment and when i come in for such, i discover that it will be another male giving me said massage. Obviously you want a girl to be the one putting their hands all over you but it didn't phase me much and things went as scheduled. We chit chatted as he worked on my back and it was great honestly. It was incredibly relieving. He then asked me to turn over and began massing my chest, shoulders, and arms and all was well. The second he moved lower to my abdomen and lower stomach i could feel myself becoming aroused (Let me say i am in no way attracted to men or the though of a gay sexual encounter. Just the feeling of soft hands touching my body had me a bit aroused). We both ignored it and he continued and it felt actually pretty invigorating. He moved down onto my legs and i felt my cock twitching and becoming a bit hard and i immediately became red in the face and felt embarrassed. He still said nothing and i figured all was fine as it was probably just normal. He kept moving farther upward on my leg and when he started kneading at my thigh i couldn't even control myself and i popped a full on erection right there. He stopped and asked me if everything was alright and i awkwardly told him all was well and so we continued. What seemed like not even five minutes later as he was kneading at my inner i completely blew a load all over myself, the table and his hands and forearm. He freaked out, i freaked out, i kept apologizing and things got kind of messed up. I was asked to leave at that once and i was told i am not allowed to return for any type of service. The whole situation literally made all my stress 100% worse. Does this make me gay?? I really could not stop any of that i did not want it to happen at all. It makes me feel ashamed and depressed. Idk what to do anymore