I turned 60, that is a long time. Of my 60 years I have been married for close to 37 years, same woman. She had a girl when we married and under pressure I made her have another kid, this is my son. I regret forcing her to have a kid, she didn't want another one, but that is history. The reason for this post is that I am a life long closet gay practitioner, a complete bottom. I first tried it out in junior high with an upper classman that was on my bus. He was a total jock, but he liked fucking boys, and I was the boy for him. He would get frustrated as shit, but he would come looking for me after a while, and I would suck him off and then turn around and spread my cheeks for what I knew for sure was to come. He would cuss at me for making him do that, and I would tell him that I wanted him to suck my dick, and he would always tell me that he wasn't a queer like me. He is still a queer like me, still pretending to be all jock, but he likes boys. In this community you know who is fucking who.

I belog to this group of men, now all of us are older, we get together for sex parties. Like I said, I am a bottom, and this is where I go to get what I want. Since it is purely a sex group, you can get two or three guys to fuck you, and in return you suck them off or do whatever they want for that matter. We have one guy who is in his mid 50s, he is an appliance salesman, and his thing is mutually jerking off while you suck his nipples. Sometimes I grab his dick, but he is one of those who likes to watch and jerk off. So I jerk off with him, and suck his nipples. Takes all kinds to make the world go round.

Although I of course have fucked my wife, I have never topped with a man. I love getting it, but I don't give it. That is my thing. Also, I don't mess around with young men, I stay strictly within my age group. I have a reputation for giving good head, which in my opinion I can do fairly well, I will also kiss which a lot of guys don't like doing, but I do. And like I said, I am always ready for some real action. If the group is up to it, I will blow one guy while the other fucks me. These are good parties, no strings attached, just men like me who like to get it on with other men, and then we go home to our wives.

If your community doesn't have an active gay scene, maybe moving to Seattle wil helps things out.