Oh I needed to find my father and I wanted him since I m an adult now.My father was a Longshoreman big juicy,as much as I loved him I the rest of us feared him.He could be the meaniest son of a bitch going and when he told you to something you better jump. I don't want to write a book her so bear with me just know its midnight and thinking about him and Im alone in bed horny as a fuck for him.He molested me when I was 12-13 and he didn't penetrate me but he had me sucking his cock and how he loved to go down on me.I don't think my mother fucked him right because he was always after me. Well one day wearing a long tee shirt he had taken off my panties I was sitting on the sofa up against the wall he took out one of my big tit and sucking my pussy playing with my nipple doorbell rang and he let a friend of his in the house he held me down and I tried to put my breast in my tt he wouldn't let me I wanted to cry but not infront of his friend he let the man talk while he ate my pussy and played with my tit?? Next day I said are you crazy how could you do this what if mom came home the brute didn't care he would cum all over me face body he didn't care as long as he could play with me.The more I told him to stop the nastier he got,once I said no and turned he got my ponytail and pulled me to my room my little brothers were watching cartoons he started to play with me with my brothers there,he had no shame he would slap my face or my ass so hard I would cry and I would never tell on him.Well I was peeing and he went on his knees to eat me I was crying and screaming mom walked in caught him he left.After that I always blamed myself for what happened I know it was not but I felt like it was.I only got to 10th grade I guess it was because I wasn't over what happened plus the fact that he wasn't sending money. Mom worked hard and I worked part time and took care of the house.Im 18 now and not a virgin I had a couple of loves married men but they didn't turn out well.Now that im a women experienced I want him.Mom got hurt on the job shes in rehab for 3-4months behind in rent little money for food no one to help,I called his sister she gave me a place he hangs out wished me luck,she didn't know about the abuse just trying to get money from him.I know once he see's me ,my body he'll go ape shit which he did. I dressed very sexy tight clothes big hoop earrings heels come and get me he bought me a drink asked it must be really important for you to look me up I explained my problem ,he got very angry he has been giving money for us and mom never received.I know his dick was made of steel, the way he was watching me he said he would bring me the money Friday .We left the bar he was driving me home he pulled over some where and told me to open my blouse and that was my dad all over again his hand went into my pussy he was tongue kissing me,he asked me are you a virgin are you on birth control ,and he liked my answers dad is so rough brutal I had to tell him easy I'll give it to you So he said Im giving you a lot of money what are you gotng to do for me <I told him everything and more I thought he was going to come home with me instead he said I'll see you Friday.Its Thursday morning I came out of shower dad is here ,he took early weekend so he could fuck me to death,he raped me his cock is so big he hit my tailbone and heaven for me the way that man can eat pussy ,I love him and fucking him ,he pounds my pussy he hits me slaps me hes been playing with my ass he wants that too.I brought my brothers over to my aunt for long week-end so Dad can fuck my ass and me. how I missed him tormenting me with himself.I love him and the fucking none of the other husbands I fucked could compare .Everything will be alright when mom gets back Im moving in with dad I cant marry him but I can fuck him all I want,and mom is going to hit the roof but I love him and sex with him.