I just wanted to tell someone. When I was a teenager and I had to babysit my three year old niece I undressed her and looked at every part of her body, and gave her an intimate massage. She liked to be treated like a baby and I would give her a bottle of juice to drink from. I would sometimes tell her to put my penis in her mouth and suck on it like a bottle.

She probably doesn't remember any of this, but I still feel guilty for what I did. I feel even guiltier when she gives me hugs and kisses for paying for her college. I feel its the least I could do to make up for what I did. What hurts even more is when she tells me that she loves me, and tells people how wonderful I am for being there for her after her mom died.