My father has raped me for as long as I can remember. By the time I turned 18 he had over 100 gigabytes of videos and photos of me on his computer. Literally anything sexual that I can imagine, he has done to me and recorded. He set up cameras in my bedroom and in the bathroom to record me. He has since committed suicide, but I kept the house since he owned it and the land.

I found out when I went through his stuff that he had set up a system among other people like him that they could actually vote on what he would do to me and that those cameras I mentioned earlier were also being viewed by other people online, meaning people were watching and likely masturbating to me using the toilet or taking a shower even during the times he was leaving me alone.

The scariest thing I found was that after I turned 18 he had been talking with someone online, sending them my pictures and information and they had discussed how much it would cost for this man to kidnap, rape, and kill me, and they had actually gotten as far as arranging for this payment to be made.

I gave the police everything after he killed himself, but everyone else that was involved was never found, so since he's dead and nothing would come of it but more pain for me, I just don't talk about it with anyone but my therapist, but I thought putting it out here might feel good, so, there it is.