I had some real hang ups over my virginity. With my religion I held it for that magic day. Some time back I cried my self to sleep for weeks on end. I knew that day would not come for me. I may never know the feeling of love being loved. I wanted to experience the joy of sex if I never knew true love.
I could not find the perfect man, so I settled for what I could find. A guy who I met at my old job seemed to be knowledgeable. He had dated several girls before he graduated high school. I called him and talked privately. I told him I found him sexy and I desired him in my bed. We set up a date at my apartment. I played music and bought some wine. I tired to get some romance from this guy, but he just wanted sex. I ask we leave the light off, I would let him do what he wanted to see what he liked. He fingered me and went down on me. He ask me to go down on him, but I did not know what I was doing. he soon got bored and had me. he held my legs up and positioned him self and plunged in me. I must admit I wanted sex, that particular second I knew I made a mistake. it burned me down there and I could not feel anything satisfying. he sure enjoyed it and told me how tight I am. He jumped up and down on me pretty rough. I agreed to no condom, I had bought a morning after pill to protect my self.
I did not think he would ever finish and when he did I could feel it running down my back side.
He ask me to get him a beer, I brought him wine. He told me he would be ready in a second for the second round. I did not want this, yet I did not want him to know. I played along with him, he ask me to go down on him again, I refused to do this with me all over him. he had me play with it till he was ready. next I am laid back and he is asking me how good it is?? if I want it rough, NO I want it slow and smooth. he actually did like I ask. You know it started feeling very good to me. I started tingling and feeling amazing, I made a sound and he yelled out yea baby and finished in me again. he got up got dressed and left.

Is this how sex usually is?? I almost had an orgasm with him inside. I think that would have been an accomplishment. Do woman have orgasm every time?? or ever?? he left and I masturbated my self, I know now what a penis feels like. Its not bad at all, and it could be good I think. Should I call him back as he wants?? or try another one??