I've never really thought of myself as gay, but I have been bi-curious since I was a teen. Occasionally over the years I would share handjobs with guys, but once I got near orgasm would start to think of females.

Lately, I've been coming more attracted to men. I've been masturbating more to naked pics of guys and have been fantasizing about sucking cock, being sucked, doing frots with cute guys while kissing them, even some about anal sex (although that's not really my thing). I have licked guys' cocks and sucked their balls during mutual masturbation sessions, and have let other guys give me blowjobs.

Beyond sex, I have no desire to be part of a "gay lifestyle" I'm in my 50's and married. My wife knows of my tendencies and knows I've played around masturbatorially with men. She does not know that homosexual lovemaking fantasies have taken over my masturbation sessions, and that I wish to act on them. I love to masturbate and do it a lot. I'd say now that more than 50% of my masturbation time is spent concentrating on guys.