I am a guy looking back on my first proper relationship. She came into it having dated a guy with a big dick and was clearly a little underwhelmed by my little fella. It was ok at first but got to the point hat she avoided touching my dick because it turned her off! We would watch porn together to get in the mood and she would get horny if there was a big cock involved. I felt self conscious about my size and would finger her a lot and only fuck her when she was really ready. At the time, I was embarrassed and ashamed and it didn't last long. Now, however, I ask girlfriends to humiliate me and tell me how small I am. I know it's wired but there it is.