Not sure where to put this, but I'm definitely embarrassed by it...

I met my wife at a frat party. The embarrassing part was she was dating a pledge to my fraternity. We told him that we'd go easy on him if he brought his gf to a party and let us take turns with her. She was hot and showed up in this tight denim minidress that buttoned down the front with snaps. We teased her by popping the snaps occasionally and getting her very drunk. We kept feeling her up during dances and grabbing her until finally we got her tipsy enough that one of the guys led her up to his room. She's a moaner and a screamer when she climaxes. Imagine the poor boyfriend hearing her go at it. We counted, and 7 of us did her that night. The embarrassing parts were that A. I was in on the plan, B. I was one of the guys that screwed her, C. I was the fourth, so she was already pretty sloppy and yet three more guys did her, D. it was my idea to make her bf screw her after we were all done.

She kept dating the bf and kept coming to our parties and we'd occasionally get her to sleep with one of us. It was a year later when I was about to graduate that I admitted to her I thought she was really hot and felt bad about what we did with her. She asked me if I'd date her for real. We started seeing each other on weekends when I'd visit school, but she was still dating her bf and still going to the parties. Then the following year she was about to graduate and she asked if she could move near me. I said yes and she then asked if I would date her if she wasn't interested in sleeping with other guys. I said yes, so she moved near me.

She worked in a big professional firm and about a year after we were married (so she was three years out of college, I was four years out) we realized she wasn't doing very well at work. The bills were pretty steep (house and cars we couldn't really afford). She was afraid she was about to get let go, so one night I said "you got a hot body, so if they try to fire you, just try to sleep with one of the bosses." She asked me if I would leave her if she slept with someone else and I said "no, I'd leave you if you lost your job."

Over the next five years she slept with 20 different guys at work. I was at one of her work parties when I got to talk to one of the guys I knew she slept with. I asked him if he liked sleeping with my wife. At first he was stunned and asked "you know about that??" I said I did and that I was okay with it as long as she kept her job. He said "there are a few girls around here like that - see that one??" He pointed to a young blonde. "She's a good fuck and she'll do anything to keep her job. That's her husband over there" (he pointed them out). He said "I can have her meet you in the parking lot." So I did, had awesome sex with her in the front seat OF HER HUSBAND'S CAR, then went back to the party.

So I'm a real jerk to my wife, and she probably has pretty low self esteem to begin with. So I'll tell one more story about it...just happened recently and it's what this posting is leading up to...we were on a trip without the kids and I convinced her to wear a very short dress. We were on a train (sort of a subway, but called a regional rail train). We were sitting with a guy with my wife in the middle when most of the seats around us emptied out. We could have moved, but I saw him checking out her thighs. When no one was looking , I spread her knees and ran my hand between her legs. She flinched at first, but I said, "You're too hot, I can't help myself" then said to the guy "she's hot, right??" He said yes, so I motioned him to replace my hand. He got in her panties and started fingering her until she came. She just watched him and his hand and kept panting. When she came, I said "How about you fuck him right here??" She said no way and he say "no, that's okay" I said, "come on, it's an adventure. I got him to free up his cock and sit sort of sideways, then once we knew the coast was clear, she stood up but laid her head in my lap. He quickly stood up and rammed her form behind. He came fast and sat back down, and she sat up. Her pussy leaked onto the seat and I congratulated the guy. She and I went back to the hotel and had some wild sex for the next couple of hours.

I do feel like an asshole, and I think the train incident is what made me realize that we both have problems. I'm some sort of cold jerk and my wife's some sort of fragile broken girl thinking she has to let herself be used. I recently asked her if she wanted a divorce, apologized for what I've done over the years and offered her a clean 50/50 split. She said she'd die if I left her, so for now it's all calm, but she's actually trying extra hard to excite me and be sexy, so I'm not sure what to do. I think I'm bad for her, but I can't imagine being with her without having her be slutty and dirty.

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by Anonymous on Aug 15, 2014 at 7:17 AM

Just be safer about it, and be willing to talk about emotions. I think she may enjoy it, but she may also be trying to please you. Just know you do care, and that she loves you, and maybe she really is okay with. Again, be safe and just talk man, it'll be good. I'd love to do something like that though lol

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by Anonymous on Jun 4, 2015 at 4:33 PM

sounds like a keeper to me, what more would you want??

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