Im a girl. Im relatively pretty, 19 years old. I have a nice tight body. I like being a girl. But I fantasize about having a dick. At first it was like I would masturbate with a big electric toothbrush and pretend it was my dick and I was jacking off. I would do that but pretend I was fucking a girl and imagine her tits bouncing. I would say im mostly straight I mean like I want to be with a guy. But woman have nice bodies so I used to masturbate to them alot. Not so much anymore ...
yeah but I would think about fucking guys in the ass, too Nd that was really hot. I would pretend I was jacking off and when I came I would imagine jizz running down my hands. I stoppes doing that so much cause I was afraid that I was messing up my hormones and my boobs seemed to get smaller and I just was manlier. So yeah I like being a girl. I always thought I was like a bisexual man in a girls body, which is okay. I dont know. I grew up with three brothers so I didnt have a huge chance to be girly. Specially since we lived out in the middle of nowhere none of us went out much. ... so anyway. Haha
now when I masturbate and wanna pretend to have a dick I just imagine im wearing a strap on. I would love to put on a strap on an fuck a girl and see her tits bounce. And fucking a guy in the ass, but it would be lame if he was all gay about it haha.
I have put my finger in a guys ass before. It was really hot actually.
I masturbate alot. Like alot. And over everything. Like I masturbate thinking about having a dick, just about tits or this guy I like or fucked up things like my dad fucking me. Or porn about alien sex and father daughter sex or girls getting fucked by machines of hentai rape and like ill masturbate to gay sex and pussies rubbing together, and squirting and double penetration ..peeping toms. Lately I've been thinking about fucking my dad alot. Ill masturbate to it and come really fast. Right now it makes me wet. I think about him alot. I hate myself for it and it pretty much ruins my life. But sex pretty much ruins my life so. I feel like I was molested as a kid by my dad but im suppressing the memory. And thats why my past seems blurry and I cant seem to recall details. And why im so sexual now And even now like I had a dream a couple nights ago about him fucking me. But it was like im not sure if it was real or not. I hear about that people fucking people in their sleep. Maybe he's done that. I dont know cause I have dreams of the same thing. And I swear sometimes i can he a him listening at my door for me to like start masturbating. Cause I do it alot someone must have heard. I think I see him looking at my boobs and ass and stuff. I really wish these weird thoughts would go away. That seems to be all that makes me really horny lately. I kind of want him to die. And I want to move out. We dont really talk much except for small talk but he makes noises when im around and its really bothersome and annoys me. I kind of feel like stabbing him sometimes. And he smokes weed all the time and he's uses less. He coughs a whole bunch to get higher and he doesn't do anything except watch tv. I kno he wants to fuck me too. I want to fucking kill him. Really. He compliments me more than my mom. He really only compliments me. And then my moms like seems jealous of it and its just fucked up. I feel like everyone in my family wants to fuck me. And I hate it. I can handle being with my brothers cause its not as prominent but I cant stand being anywhere close tp my dad. I really really wish he would just die. I hate him so much. I've told him that before and all he said was okay. All he does is stare at my ass and chest and I wanna punch him in his stupid uneducated face. He's a disgrace of a father. He's a pervert. I walked in on hom watching animal porn. And he's always putting my mom down. And he's so stupid like all he does is smoke weed. Why cant I have a smart educated father who's not a perv who makes money amd doesn't spend all his money on weed. He fucked me up. First by not giving me love but then giving me love when I was finally developed and attractive. I hate him so much I get filled with rage every time.I hear him cough out his stupid weed. And he's to blame for my shitty relationship past. Now I look for guys who dont get me affection but are hungry for me. I dont wanna be like either of my parents. Nor do I wanna know anyone like them.
I went way off track with that. I dont talk about myself alot.