Hello everyone I am samantha aleast thats my girlish name my girlfriends gave me . i am a gay homosexual male . i have been since before puberty . till january 3 of this year no one in my family knew that i am a gay homosexual male . till i broke down and told my mother . it was the hardest thing in my life i have ever done . thankfully she accepted it and me for me comming out and telling her . i love crossdressing into women's panties bras and makeup dresses and high heels by the way . i have bought my own from thongs see through to silky satan . my girlfriends helps me with everything putting on my makeup . shopping for clothes everything . i knew that i was gay when i was eight . whenever another boy kissed me on the lips . when i was 12 i put on my first panties and bras and makeup dresses and high heels . at 13 i had sex with the same boy who kissed me on my lips when i was eight his name was steven . he didn't crossdress but he dominated my ass alot . he was well equipped i loved riding his 6inch cock for 4 to 6 hrs nonstop especially whenever he talked dirty . i loved sucking his 6inch cock dry after sex mmm nice warm cock juices sliding down my throat mmm good . since then i have been riding cock hard as i can . i tried having sexual intercourse with women but i found myself getting sick at the though of it i threw up . cock i love sucking and fucking 24/7 . but comming out and telling everybody i am a gay homosexual male and a crossdressing homosexual male at best was and is the hardest thing in my own life i have ever done . my mom is the only person in my family that accepted it . the rest of my family has disowned and called me every hurtful name on gods green earth . that includes my father as well he refuses to accept that i am a gay homosexual male and a crossdressing homosexual male at that i am . he hasn't spoken to me since then . i guess its like my therapist said only i have to accept that i am a crossdressing homosexual male . as well as being true to myself .