I love my husband. We've been together for 17 years. He has a low sex drive and is lousy in bed. Most of my friends have the same problem with their husbands. Most of them have affairs but I've always been too high and mighty to cheat.

Until a month ago. My husband asked his best friend to drive me home. I was drunk. My husband wanted to stay and his friend was leaving and gave me the ride. He'd been hitting on me for years and as soon as he pulled out he started telling me how hot I looked.

He walked me into the house, grabbed a water and used the bathroom then made a pass at me in my hallway. And I responded. I was horny and lonely and I let him do whatever he wanted. I gave him head right in the hallway, he brought me to my room, stripped me, threw me on my bed and ate me til I came then made me suck his cock for a long time. He was hard and big, much much bigger than my husband. When he finally put it in it hurt at first then felt wonderful. He made me cum again and ended up cumming inside me before he left.

I felt really guilty afterward but daydreamed about that man's cock constantly. I've now let him fuck me six times, three times since Wednesday. I can't help it. It just feels so good when he jambs that huge thing into me and fucks me like a woman needs to be fucked.

I feel guilty and hate what I'm doing but I need it.