I am a typical 19 year old attractive girl. I have been sexually active for a few years now. I have slept around a bit, had fun, but been safe but experimented a lot, and I like to be submissive and let men take charge of me. I don't know why i did it, other then it has been a long time fantasy, but a few nights ago i sold myself for money.

I don't need the money, i am in a good family, I am not on drugs, i just kinda did it for a thrill, i guess, i am still confused about it. I had tried most other sexual things so i was like what is next?? I put an ad on backpages and i got a few responses. And i even set up a few meets and got scared and backed out, i did quite a few times. But last night i finally did it and took the plunge, all the way.

He was an older guy, kinda a grandfather figure, and married. He was sweet and gentle with me but not that great looking or sexy at all. Still, the thrill was not that he was hot, but that i was selling myself to him. That idea just made me so wet. I stripped for him, he fondled me, i blew him some, and he had a pretty nice dick for an old goat with a few extra pounds. But I really got into letting him fuck me, and he had a good fat dick, and i kinda wish he had lasted longer, i wanted more, and kept getting the verge of cumming! lol

We played safe, but i let him pop on my tits. I he wanted on my face and said it was normal but i was not ready. He was just happy to be with a cute young but legal girl that he did what i said.

After he left i was still so turned on i masterbater to several intense orgasims reliving it right on the bed where we fucked and looking at the money on the bed stand. And i have to admit i tasted his cum off my tits (i know stupid and unsafe) i was just so turned on.

I am not going to become a hooker or escort at all, i have no need to, but i really enjoyed the thrill of being sold. And I damn well know i'll be going it again, and soon, just not all the time or for the need of money. I just want that thrill again! I am so turned on that i let a man have that power over me, treat me like a whore (well i guess i was), and it felt great that he was willing to pay me to use me like that. He was sweet and polite, but he did not care about me, wonder why i was doing this, nor care what made me do it, he just want to use me as a hot young fuck and the more that was clear the more that turned me on.

Ok, Help. Somebody please, somebody more experienced then me, help me understand why i am doing this and why it turns me on for fucking much. I don't need the money, i am not a drugs, nobody every abused me, but being treated like that, being posted on-line and sold like an object, being purchased and used even by a sweet gentle man so awoke in me feeling of hornieness i just can't get out of my mind. I just keep replaying it. I know i'll do it again, but i am trying to wait a bit not o get addicted to the rush of it. So help, anyone know why i am suddenly so fucked up!??