I saw myself on an internet video. It wasn't somebody else. It was me. I saw myself naked and my hands and knees tied with me on top of a coffee table. I saw my boobs hanging down. I saw my anus and my vagina and I kept thinking to myself how much I didn't want my friends or family to see what I was seeing.

The guy with the camera kept talking about me, telling everyone that I was his cat in heat. I was wanting sex but just in our group. I didn't expect it to be public on the internet.

I saw a naked guy go behind me. I saw me being penetrated. The video guy was trying to show my face and how I looked when I was getting fucked harder and harder and I could see that I didn't like it anymore.

I love sex. I was there for sex, but not like that, not with camera going, not with those other guys. And now all I can think of is how and if I can deal with it if it gets seen by people I know.