Hey there, for my own confidentiality, I am going to provide myself with the alias, Roman.

I have known that I am bisexual ever since I was in middle school. Or maybe a little before???????????????? I have a neighbor who I was really, really, really close to and we were the best of friends. One day he took me behind his garage(we were around 8yrs old). I knew my neighbor was a little crazy, but what he did left me speechless. He led me to this secret area and he said to me, "Hey Roman wanna see something cool????????????????" And of course I said, "Yeah John, show me!" He said, "Look down, its my nuts, come on touch them" I was naive and confused I just simply said, "Cool, ok but hurry this doesn't feel right" I couldn't believe what I was feeling!! I was holding my best friend's pride and glory in my hands. The feeling was overwhelming! I fondled them, caressed them, and squeezed them firmly, heck I even remember flicking his dick and he had a tiny little erection maybe about 3-4ins. Point is I just couldn't let go, I was experiencing so much ecstasy.

After that blissful experience, he showed me his balls and penis on several more occasions. He even convinced me to show him mine and it was a regular thing we had were we just messed around with each other's stuff(not sexually of course). This lasted til we were around 12-13yrs old, he out grew this phase, but I didn't. I just stopped showing him mine cuz I was ashamed of mine(it was small due to a condition known as Klinefelter's Syndrome, and still currently is) and I slowly started craving his dick. I had come close on many occasions to giving him oral sex, I was always just too scared and unfortunately he out grew that phase too :(

A little later like in our adulthood years, I invited him over for a movie. It was a comedy film, that we both found very tedious(especially him), so we started falling asleep. He put his arm around me and told me, "Damn Roman, you're a very great friend and I love you dude" I got a little weary and he noticed so he took his arm off me. I was upset. But a little later I noticed he was knocking out. I placed my hand on his leg, but he just looked at me half asleep and next thing I knew he was snoring! So little adventurous me took things a little further. I feel bad, but I took advantage of the situation and started rubbing his leg, I slowly started raising my hand in between his legs and just started feeling around... I loved every minute of it! I was just grabbing his junk through his gym shorts, I noticed he was kinda waking up so I stopped, but he had a major erection(he definitely grew since we were kids!) He looked at me once more and knocked out again. My adventure continued. Later on I found the audacity to put my hand in his shorts!!!! It was amazing, made me reminisce in child hood memories! I squeezed his nuggets and started stroking his penis! Now im not too sure, but I could've sworn he had a smile on his face and wasn't asleep anymore, so I kept playing with his balls(I have a thing for balls) squeezing them, scratching them, and then caressing them again. I stopped when I confirmed he was awake(seemed like I wasn't caught) but he tried covering his boner with his hands and just cradled his balls til he went asleep again. Then I went at it again but this time I rested my hand on his dick but outside his shorts. He woke up and tried pushing my hand away, then he gave up and just placed his hand on top of mine, while I fondled his man hood a little more and then we both knocked out. I woke up still with my hands on his crotch, but this time he just got up really fast and bro hugged me and said good bye to me, but because he wasn't suppose to spend the night and his mom was calling him to go back home. I have a feeling he was kind if awake because he hasn't came to my house in a couple months.

Now there is a point to this episode. Ever since these experiences with my neighbor, it has fed a monster with in me. All I fantasize is about sucking on another guys penis. There is nothing I currently want more than to make love to a man's love stick and to a pair of hefty nuts that go with it. While I please him orally I also want to play with his balls for a while, I want to bite them, squeeze them, lick them, suck on them for a while, and just move them around in my hands. And maybe even sock them once or twice(not too hard, just teasingly). I'm not gay, cause I also crave woman intimately and sexually. I want to have a family and love a woman. I don't believe in love between a man and a man. With a man I just wanna provide head for him ;) I just wanna be a cock sucker.