PHOTOS AND DIRTY PANTIES.... I know i should put my story in the category of [fetishes and kinky sex] but wait because my secret actually belongs here.i've never told anyone because it's weird and embarassing...well some will see it as i have serious issues..some would be right.to start i will say that i'm definitely cursed because i have a small penis..very small at a little less than 3 inches and when erect it's thickness is okay if i were to say have sex with tiny little girls.though i do sexually desire young girls and woman i've never had sexual intercourse EVER and yes i am 49 years old .i've basically been sexually frustrated and often angry through out my entire life due to this condition.medically doctors describe it as a sexual pitutary growth issue and back in the early 90's wanted me to sign legal forms to allow them to write journal documentaries and expose my what they assume to be a rare medical discovery though in india,japan,thailand,mexico,peru these cases are documented with men prone to this condition.we are classified by society as freaks...the legendary andre the giants,hermophradites,tiniest people etc..etc from circuses,ripleys believe it or not,bizarre magazines and guinness world records which is nothing to be proud of when you stand in a negative light and far beyond different than others.my grandfather was a well known famous architect in america and his inheritance helped to hide me in a world of seclusion.the internet and close family is my only source of comfort from the outside world.i love,respect,believe yet loath and detest god,creator or whatever spiritual being who created me yet don't feel ill will nor hatred towards my mother who was just chosen to birth me.due to privacy i live in an undisclosed location outside the united states and throughout the years have grown to literally hate humanity with it's thirst for wars,racisms,violence,guns,corrupt politics,deceptions and greed.my own wealth is meaningless because i never worked a day in my life to earn it honestly and proudly so i compensate by donating to cancer research,the make a wish foundation,homeless societies and starving children/families around the world and even then i don't consider myself worthy of their gratefulness because even there i failed.i'm admittedly a hypocrite with the tendencies of a closeted phile,but my only reach and comfort is photos and dirty panties of young little girls.my grandfathers money provides me these guilty pleasures because a few select people in my circle desire small riches to sell me my guilt.i pay to have them flown in from japan,china,nigeria with the actual photos and young girls that wear the panties and appear in the photos.they never have the advantage to see me in person as i closely observe them through cameras.among my private hired staff i hired a man from london to attend to these momentary guest in my home.the young girl is escorted to a private room where she is to remove her panties and put them in an envelope that is immediately sealed by my employee and then the request for the photos exchanges hands.my guest are then invited to to have a seat and served drinks while my employee brings me the desired items.i only deal with a few that come highly recommended yet before any money exchanges hands i personally verify it's the young girl in the photos.rare is the occasion when the young girl is offered for a night of unknown pleasures but my strict stipulations of no sexual contact is respected.they leave satisfied and several thousands wealthier upon verification.my employee and immediate staff are paid extremely well for their silence and service and are required to sign non-disclosure forms adhering to their oath.my chosen family members are all kept in the dark and i paid to have my medical records sealed,i am after all my own worst enemy spending hours in my dark room and loneliness to masturbate to photos and savor the aromas and taste of a young girls privates.my computers also aids me in seeing the outside world with photos and videos of young girls on youtube and facebook,despite no actual sexual contact with my desires. due to my condition i'v learned to adapt and mentally imagine myself in different scenarios sexually with hundreds of thousands of these young girls.their scent,their beauty and innocences.i am no threat to them as i sit in my dark living hell that is my condition and destiny and wealth is nothing when one lives in misery .