TAKING IT RAW... GROWING UP i learned i had a high tolerance to pain when my oldest brother who was always letting me sleep over the weekends at his apartment started touching me.at first it was innocent and normal like caressing my hair,face and arms..i was 9 years old and he was 21 and it never bothered me.he was always buying me cloths,taking me outdoors to the movies,parks etc...we were always having fun and i just always felt comfortable and relax when i was with him,my mother had at that time recently remarried and thought it was great that big brother took the time to care for me since his failed marriage.hours spent together alone in his apartment and the closeness we shared seemed to just feel right and when he chased me around and play wrestle with me i never said anything when suddenly i'd feel his hand momentarily grabbing my ass or times when he would playfully wrestle me to the floor to tickle and kiss my belly. naturally so many obvious signs were there and opportunities for him to sit beside me on the sofa and gently stroke my hair and often massage the back of my neck because he knew i enjoyed it.there was no need to have the tv or radio on to distract us.he had bought me a set of nightgowns that i wore along with matching panties while he often just wore men's satin shorts.contrary to his tall muscular body i was short and obese from eating junk food though he and my mother at home cooked some great hispanic dishes.my brother playfully called me lil-miss chunky and often compared me to child star honey-boo-boo though i have light brown hair.one day he just naturally began caressing my fat small breast and though i didn't say anything or looked up at him i smiled,it was extreme silence between us where only a short while earlier we had been laughing and joking.though we were alone he waited a long while before leaning down to whisper in my ear in spanish [let's go into my room]... we got up from the sofa and he took me by the hand to lead me to the back where his room was,i had no idea what sex was other than my mother always advising me to never let anyone touch my private parts.my brother sat on the edge of his queen size bed and i sat beside him,i didn't say anything while he spoke to me in spanish about how he had always wondered what it would be like to have sex with me and understood if i was confused or wanted to go home.when i didn't respond he got up and quietly removed his shorts and obviously since i had never seen a naked man before it was strange and new to me.his man-thing was only semi-erect and seem to levitate between his legs,i obviously was amazed by it's hugeness.had i any sexual experience back then i would have certainly been nervous and sure that my brother could never get it inside me... just then his cellphone rang and my brother went over to sit in a chair on the other side of his room by the window to talk to one of his friends,for a while we stared at each other and he smiled when i got up to remove my nightgown and panties though when i sat back on the edge of his bed i covered myself with a pillow hugging it tightly.they talked for a long while and at one point my brother got up to come sit next to me signaling for me to be quiet while i felt his hand behind me crawling and pushing the bed down where i was sitting.i had no idea what he was trying to do until his hand was cleverly massaging my pussy as he talked on his cellphone.sitting on his hand with all my weight was strange and pleasant and with the strength in just that one hand he had no trouble caressing,stroking and gently squeezing my puffed pussy.i leaned my head on the pillow sideways to stare up at him with a look and rolling of my eyes as if to say...hurry up already. little did we know that soon after that call he would recieved another call from some other friends who were on their way to visit him.removing the pillow from my hands he gently pushed me down on the bed and lifted my knees up to my shoulders.my brother was an experienced adult in oral sex using his saliva and tongue to increase lubrication though i naturally and often self lubricated and growing up noted that i moistened and soaked heavily.he too had noted earlier and didn't mentioned it...the momentary strangeness of oral sex soon led to our first shocking discovery when he let go of my knees and unexpectedly shoved three fingers in my pussy tearing my hymen.though the pain should have been far worse it was only temporary as my legs closed around his hand and clutched a nearby pillow on his bed,after a few minutes of rapid intense finger-fucking he eventually stopped and gently stroked my hair until i was able to get up and go take a bath as if nothing had happened.naturally i bled and there was soreness but was surprisingly able to walk normal and even laugh and joke with my brothers male friends. the traditional habit of drinking and watching sports lasted a little over 3 hours that saturday night with only one of my brothers friends passing out on the sofa,as i waited by my brothers bedroom door he cleaned the living room and twice his passed out friend got up but was too intoxicated though he kept mumbling and talking something about a car,store etc..my brother finally convinced that his friend would sleep a few hours followed me into his bedroom where once naked and self lubricated he managed to somehow fuck me every few minutes though shocked and amazed by my strength to endure the pain and hugeness.usually at the point where he went too fast and deep i'd let out a loud TIME OUT,TIME OUT in spanish because i could feel partial sensitivity and rawness often clutching at my pussy with my thighs tightly sealed arounnd my hands up to the wrist.obviously during that long night we had forgotten about his friend sleeping on the sofa until we heard the toilet flushing in the distance,if he heard anything or happened to see anything he never said a word to anyone.every weekend until i turned 13 and my brother met a woman in puerto rico i was the one who shared his bed...true.