There must be other women out there who are in my predicament. Ones who have made their minds up about what to do, and who have taken the choice by themselves. Unfortunately I'm struggling with not only what I witnessed, but also my own response.

I'm a very sexually active person and I think my husband and I have a good, if not fantastic sex life. So why then after returning home early from a day out with my sister (It had rained all morning) did I find the man I love with all my heart, lay on the rug in front of our fireplace naked. His legs were up around a guys neck who I didn't know, and the guy who was also naked, was fucking my husband and masturbating him at the same time.

It was like everything went into slow motion as I watched my husband willingly take this guys cock deep up his asshole. And from I could tell, my husband was loving every second of it. Now the totally bizzare thing, I stood there knowing he was cheating on me, and got unbelievably turned on. I don't mean just curious, I actually mean my pussy was soaking wet with sexual anticipation.

I found myself willing the guy to fuck my husband harder and I strained to see from the doorway just how big this guys cock was, the obviously large one that was giving my husband so much pleasure. I nearly cried out with the building sexual charge flowing through me, when I touched myself. As hard as I tried to find what they were doing to be repulsive, I just couldn't. Slipping my right hand up under my skirt and into my panties, I knowingly inserted a finger inside myself, as they both began to moan and tell one another how good the other was fucking.

Pushing my husbands legs back over his head almost, the man leaned over and they kissed. It was only seconds later I heard my husband tell tale grunts from when he orgasmed. Seperating slightly I saw cum spread over each of their abdomens. The guy withdrew from my husbands ass and I could clearly see his large condom covered cock. Removing the condom quickly and moving up my husbands body, his cock exploaded showering my husbands face and chest with his cum.

As hard as I could, I tried to surpress my own moans as I came. But I'm sure they heard something as I ducked behind the doorway. Moving as quickly as I dared, I walked out of the house and got into my car. Driving a few blocks from home, I sat there to try rationalise what I'd seen and why I did what I did. The only conclusion I could come up with, was my husband had an obvious bent for being fucked and loved his secret gay sexual experiances, probably just as much as he loved being dominant with me when he fucked me mercilessly. For my part I think and this is where I'm struggling. Is I think I've found another sexual deviancy in me. And that's watching my husband taking another mans cock deep up his asshole. Because why else would I have masturbated myself to orgasm watching them.

I cannot make up my mind. If I should let him know I know about his secret gay liason, should I let him have his sexual release from gay sex. Or should I leave the man I love for cheating on me. I do have a touch of jealousy about him seeing a guy to have sex with, but I also know deep down, I actually enjoyed seeing the pleasure on my husbands face as he was taking a big cock up his probably well fucked asshole.

Decission time is coming, as we're supposed to be away on vacation soon. And I need to know if I can truely love and trust him in future. Wish I knew what other couples had gone through and how they've dealt with it all.