should I confess to him??

I've been seeing this guy for more than a year now. We're both super discreet, he's a 36 year old man with a wife and two kids. He's in the medical field and I am a 25 year old financial advisor. We both don't want to come out of the closet and we wanted to keep this "good-looking-straight men image" forever. Every time we see each other, it's very secret and private. We started out as fuck buddies and we've been exclusive fuck buddies for more than a year. The sex that we have is very amazing. But for the past couple of months, I'm having this feelings for him and I don't know if he feels the same way too or probably I'm just hoping but I think I'm actually falling for him. The last couple of months, we don't say "sex" or "fuck" when we set time to see each other, I've been using "make love" and he's kinda cool with it. this time I wanted to have sex with him not because I'm horny but because i want to give him much physical pleasure and emotional satisfaction. I just wanted to make love with him and I've been thinking about calling him my first boyfriend.

We practice safe sex all the time. Last time, he knew I just had my regular check up from my company and he knows I am safe. and i never doubt his health either because he's in the medical field. The last time we had sex, he asked me if he could remove the condom, confident that we're both safe, i said yes. in all honesty, it was the best sex I've ever had. I know it's not safe not to use condom but not using it was way more sensual. The feeling of his cock in my ass with no cover on it was just amazing. that flesh to flesh sensation was just too great. it was sooo amazing that I came so hard while he's still fucking me and I had my cum all over my chest. When he came, he thrust so hard and I never heard him moan like that. It was as so intense. I knew he had cum deep inside me. After he came, he looked me in my eyes with intensity and passion before kissing me again. We just hugged in exhaustion and laughing how hard we both came. We continued to cuddle and kiss and it took a while before we went to the shower together.

I definitely wanted to confess to him about how I feel about him. I am ready now to have a secret affair with a man. I don't wanna be caught and I don't to ruin his family, I still want him to be the husband and the father that he should be. I just wanted some label in our relationship and not just some fuck buddy.

I have a different reason why I wanted to have sex with him right now. And that's because it is such a personal and intimate experience to have anal sex with a man you love !!! To 'take in a man' and to be 'filled with his passion' is such a mixture of emotional highs combined with sensations of pleasure and pain that it is almost impossible to put the feelings into words. Knowing that the guy you love is all the way inside you, and that you are giving him much, much physical pleasure and emotional satisfaction is such a grand experience.