I was looking through photo albums from when I was a baby and I noticed something looked strange about all my pacifiers. I looked it up, and all the pacifiers I used when I sucked on when I was a baby are party favors given out for like, bachelorette parties, where the rubber nipple is shaped like a penis. And I don't just mean vaguely phallic I mean like, legitimately shaped like a penis, including tiny balls. I don't know if they came from mom's bachelorette party or if she even had one, she died shortly after I was born and dad died last year so it's not like I could ask him, but this makes me question a lot of things I remember growing up and things I do now.

Like I remember being confused in high school when my friends would complain about their parents not letting them wear something because it was too revealing, because when they showed me the outfit it just looked like the kind of clothes I'd been wearing since I was 12 at least. The first time I gave someone a blowjob it just felt like the most natural thing. Idk maybe I'm reading too much into it.