My name is Rachel, I'm 32 years old and desperate to try and stop my guilty urge to confess to my husband. That's why I'm confessing here.

Through bad luck and some bad judgement, my husband and I found ourselves in financial difficulties. We have two children who are still very young and didn't understand why my husband and I were becoming anxious and moody. They didn't know we were on the verge of losing our home and probably our marriage breaking up, such was the pressure.

Desperate to find the funds to stay off the reposession of our home, I reluctantly sought help from a less than friendly set of men. I borrowed the money off them and stalled the financial problems we had. All the time keeping my husband out of the loop. I told him the funds had come from a bonus scheme at work, and they would be enough to also buy him the van he needed to bring in more work and money.

The thing was things workwise didn't set off as quickly as I would have liked, and definately not as quickly as the men who I'd loaned the money from. That's because I had to default on two payments. The costs stacked up and they came to see me, thankfully after I'd dropped our children off at school, and my husband had just left to survey a new job.

I didn't have the funds to pay them, so they gave me an alternative way of paying them back. Indeed once I'd stripped naked in front of them and had had over an hours sex with them both, I was given the oportunity to pay it all back in kind. I might have had two children but my body has been kept fit and toned by lots of swimming and walking. In the past I've modelled for catalogues so I knew I was still at 32 an attractive woman.

The sex I had with both men that cold autumn morning was I have to admit, absolutely amazing. I tried to keep it as a purely business deal in my mnd, but once I began sucking on the first mans huge cock, I couldn't help but become turned on and horny. Over the next hour both men came in my mouth as I sucked both of them off in turn. By then my pussy was aching to be fucked, and when the oldest of the two asked me if I was taking birth control, I told him I wasn't, but he could fuck my asshole instead.

With my mouth being fucked again, I felt the older of the two slide his massively thick cock deep inside my asshole. I shouldn't have wanted him there, but I remember asking him to make me cum, to fuck me hard and to treat me like a slut. He didn't dissapoint me and I obviously didn't dissapoint him, because when he'd cum inside my body for the second time and had gotten dressed, he told me once a week they'd be round to collect "their payment" from me personally.

No more money left our household for the next year. That year has only just finished. Each sexual session with one or both of them or has been fun, and each time I'd become a little more interactive with them. Sometimes it was with both men, but mostly it was with the older man who only a fortnight ago told me our debt was paid. When I asked him why it was early, he replied "Because you've been everything my wife has never been". He didn't say anymore and walked away.

Our financial circumstances changed in the year, and we've now become more than comfortable. My husbands new venture which he started two months back, has taken off superbly well. Mainly from all the hard work he put in from buying the new van a year ago.

I know in my heart I did become a willing sexual partner, and have to admit the sex was some of the best sex I've ever had. But not once did I allow any emotional part of me to become involved, therefor when he walked away I knew I could get on with our lives. My problem now, is I miss the hard rough sometimes forced sex they wanted, and if i'm being totally honest I miss his, the older mans much larger cock.

So do I own upto my husband whom I love, and see where that confession goes. Or do I keep quiet and find myself some sex toys to replace the unattached sex I now miss.