I don't think my boyfriend likes my kids...he hasn't been over in three weeks. I feel so lonely. Part of the reason is my kids. The other is he is busy thinking....i feel like we don't fit in his life.

I think even worse is I want one more baby and he don't it kills me to have to say good bye to that fantasy.


now on the other hand I have a Latino guy who is older more settled down who wants to get to know me likes and wants kids. And is cute, buy I love my man.

and the icing is I'm "legally married" I left the fucker and he has been mia for awhile. Thank god too.