I have a secret that I can never tell anyone about and have been letting myself be used for almost two years. Jeff is an older married man who has a medical type fetish and pays me well to satisfy his urges. He is impotent so there is never normal sex between us. I go to his office at least twice a month and let him give me examinations that even after all this time are still degrading and humiliating. He pays me $600 evey time and for two hours each time I allow him to basically ravage my body. In his office basement he has a make shift exam table that he built out of wood even connecting crudely made sturrups to have me fully exposed to him. I have known Jeff for about four years and also know his wife and the first time he approached me to do this I thought he was joking about it. He is 64 years old and admitted right from the start he is unable to get an erection and had a deep medical fetish never telling me waht caused his inability to get an erection. For months he kept asking me to submit to gyno exams and started by offering me $100 then 200 and finally $500 which he said was the most he could afford. To me $500 is a lot of money so I gave in just to be able to pay my apartmnt rent on time. The first few times I let him examine me was so humiliating I actually cried even though he did nothing to hurt me. It was just the ways he had me exposed to him and how he talked to me pretending he was a doctor. He uses latex gloves all the time and even wears a white smock. Just being naked was embarrassing enough but laying there with my legs wide open and my feet in the sturrups letting him penitrate my vagina and rectum was worse. It was about the fourth time I let him do this that he began masturbating me and the fact he could get me aroused was also degrading at first.

As a few months went by he kept subjecting me to more invasive things and had bought speculums which I at first objected to. Thats when he started giving me $600 every time and I allowed him to do things to me that I had never experienced before and ways my boyfriend don't even see me. I have lost all dignity for the money he gives me and I just let him have his way with me. Most of the time he is playing with my breasts and penitrating me with his fingers or the speculums. Towards the end of the exams he always concentrates on and has success getting me aroused. Jeff has gotten so good at masturbating me that he has me orgasm many times encouraging me and telling me how much he enjoys seeing me being satisfied and my reactions as I orgasm. Somtimes and more recently over the last year he is also naked but with all the things he does to my body never has an erection. He often has me hold his penis but it is always limp and he has never ejaculated. Twice a month I let him do these things and although it is mainly for the money I admit I enjoy when he masturbates me. I still hate when he penitrates me with the speculum especially when he does it annally and at times my anus has been sore for a few days. Over the last year there have been months where he had me come over three times and I never refuse going there whenever he calls me. I feel ashamed of myself but the the $1200 I get every month and an occassional extra $600 has made my life much easier. Jeff is very well to do financially but also a sexual deviate with a strange fetish. I don't understand why he pays me when he can't even get aroused and is unable to come. I can tell by his facial expressions, the way he looks at my body and the things he says to me that he enjoys every minute I am there. I know it makes him happy but after all this time and all the things he has done to my body IO am still humiliated by it. He has seen and probed my naked body at least twice a month for almost two years yet it still is embarrassing to me. As much as I enjoy when he masturbates me I still feel degraded by what I let him do to me. The money is great but I am ashamed of how I get it.