Straight Female / 35
I cheat regularly on my husband. I am involved with a man I first met at work (I don't work there any more because of our relationship). I see him pretty often, mostly at lunch. I work at an office with fairly relaxed standards, and I run errands during the day. He usually sends me a message of where and what time to meet him and I go the motel and knock on the door and we get it on.
Because it is at lunch sometimes the whole thing lasts less than 15 minutes, I just go, and he does his thing, and then I go back to work. We have hooked up later in the day, but these are well planned meetings, he arranges to have some business meeting, tells his wife where he is going to be and I also plan a seminar or something like that, and we meet up for a longer get together.
The quickies are fine with me, he is in and out in no time, and back to work. The more planned meetings are harder because he wants the whole attention trip. This is when he wants me to show commitment to him, and tell him how much I love him and how if only we could be married we would have family of our own, and we would live in a house and all that. Of course this is fantasy, he is married for over 30 years, and he is not going to leave his wife for me, and I am married and I have two preteen girls and I would never divorce my husband to be lonely at the dirty end of an affair.
There are days when I just can't imagine how his wife doesn't know that he is messing around. I have met her, had lunch with her and nothing, not a missed word or anything that would give the hint that she knows I am active sexually with her husband. As for my husband, he is and always has been a passive individual. He believes anything. I don't think he has the ability to imagine that his wife gets screwed regularly by another man. I go weeks without having sex with him, sometimes months. I get so much sex that I just can't go home and have more. The truth is my husband does not turn me on, when I married him it was convenient and I needed someone to cover up the affair I was in. Being totally honest with myself, I know both of my kids belong to my lover. But I don't know for sure. Both my husband and my lover are O+, not be design, but it means that we would have to do DNA tests to make sure.
I will 'celebrate' my tenth 'anniversary' with my lover, ten years from the fist time he took me and had sex with me. The funny thing is that most marriages don't last ten years. I would guess that I will be with him for ever. By now I am not going anywhere and he is stable personality and stays on track with his life. He is not going to break up with me, his whole life revolves around me.
Maybe I should test the kids, but with what excuse. I guess getting some material from my husband is not hard, and test to see if there is a match, if there isn't then my lover is the father, if there is then my husband is the father. But I don't want to know, I prefer to think they are my lover's and it would devastate me to find out that my husband fathered one or both of my children.
This is my sad life, a wandering soul who is attached at the hip with a man that can never be my husband.
Because it is at lunch sometimes the whole thing lasts less than 15 minutes, I just go, and he does his thing, and then I go back to work. We have hooked up later in the day, but these are well planned meetings, he arranges to have some business meeting, tells his wife where he is going to be and I also plan a seminar or something like that, and we meet up for a longer get together.
The quickies are fine with me, he is in and out in no time, and back to work. The more planned meetings are harder because he wants the whole attention trip. This is when he wants me to show commitment to him, and tell him how much I love him and how if only we could be married we would have family of our own, and we would live in a house and all that. Of course this is fantasy, he is married for over 30 years, and he is not going to leave his wife for me, and I am married and I have two preteen girls and I would never divorce my husband to be lonely at the dirty end of an affair.
There are days when I just can't imagine how his wife doesn't know that he is messing around. I have met her, had lunch with her and nothing, not a missed word or anything that would give the hint that she knows I am active sexually with her husband. As for my husband, he is and always has been a passive individual. He believes anything. I don't think he has the ability to imagine that his wife gets screwed regularly by another man. I go weeks without having sex with him, sometimes months. I get so much sex that I just can't go home and have more. The truth is my husband does not turn me on, when I married him it was convenient and I needed someone to cover up the affair I was in. Being totally honest with myself, I know both of my kids belong to my lover. But I don't know for sure. Both my husband and my lover are O+, not be design, but it means that we would have to do DNA tests to make sure.
I will 'celebrate' my tenth 'anniversary' with my lover, ten years from the fist time he took me and had sex with me. The funny thing is that most marriages don't last ten years. I would guess that I will be with him for ever. By now I am not going anywhere and he is stable personality and stays on track with his life. He is not going to break up with me, his whole life revolves around me.
Maybe I should test the kids, but with what excuse. I guess getting some material from my husband is not hard, and test to see if there is a match, if there isn't then my lover is the father, if there is then my husband is the father. But I don't want to know, I prefer to think they are my lover's and it would devastate me to find out that my husband fathered one or both of my children.
This is my sad life, a wandering soul who is attached at the hip with a man that can never be my husband.
