My father and mother are equal seperates, they are not compatible on any level, he is a hard nosed businessman and my mother is a cry baby. They don't live together, my father can't take my mother's whining and crying. Why he stays married to her I can't understand, he should have dumped her a long time ago and got a real grown up woman.

I know my mom isn't retarded or anything like that, she is just not grown up, she behaves like she is 16.

We always had a nanny or sitter, an older woman who took care of us and by us, I mean my mother and us kids. I surpassed my mother when I was 14, by then I was the 'woman of the house', took care of everything and took care of my younger sisters.

I want to get married, I know I am too young to make that move, but I feel like I have been a grown woman for ever. I am responsible and can take care of a house, I know what a man needs and how to look after a man. By this I mean other than sex. I would never have sex with my father, but in every other sense I am the grown woman.

I don't have a suitable boyfriend, I just want to get married and have my own house and have my own kids. I only talked about this once with a friend, but since I was 17 I want to get pregnant. I want to be pregnant, I see myself in the mirror and I can picture myself pregnant with a big belly. This is what I dream about, I don't really dream about boys, I dream about being a wife and having kids and my own house.

I wish my father would find a grown woman to be with, one that doesn't whine and cry about everything. My mother would never know, she doesn't think about those things, she lives in a fantasy world. I just think my father should have a chance to be with a real grown woman. I would not blame him, and I am sure my sisters would not either. They feel like me, dad needs a woman, a real woman who can take care of him.

Anyway, that is my family situation.