I am a closet bisexual male and because of my religion I kept this image of mine as a manly, built and adventurous 25 year old professional. It's not too long ago that I started exploring gay sex. I was 22 years old when I had my first gay sex encounter. I know a lot about gay sex even before that happened but I was just too scared to get caught at that time. I wanted to stop this gay sex but I just can't.

It started out when I was 22, fresh from college, I worked out of town. It was then that I stared to explore. I met this guy, around 30. We were both on the same page and like to keep it top secret. It was on our 4th encounter that allowed him to penetrate my butt. I was very satisfied with oral sex and dry humping but I fell in love with him. Being in a relationship with a guy for the first time, I wanted to give him everything. I gave him my virgin ass. I don't regret it, it was then that I discovered that I love being the receiver. For the many times that he fucked me, not every single one those times that I regretted it. He was the best, I mean, he wasn't giving me just fuck, he was making love with me. I felt it. It wasn't just sex for the both of us and that's why I enjoyed every moment of it.

There was this one time when he asked me if he could fuck me bareback, I thought for a while but knowing that he is safe, I obliged and it was the best sex I ever had. I was in extacy when I felt him exploded deep inside me. What I like about our sex is that the after sex there is always about cuddling and being extra romantic. It was always like that. However, a year ago, he worked overseas and long distance was too much to handle, at least for the both of us. Opportunity that comes along our way was too hard to resist. I met this girl, six months ago. She's beautiful and great. She's my ideal wife and because of the position that I am right now and my job, I want to keep her and I want to love her.

However, he came back and he's asking me to see him and talk. I don't want to because I know I won't be able to resist him. The thing is, I don't know how I feel for him right now. I don't know If I am still in love with him or am I just missing the sex and intimacy we once shared.

The girl I'm speaking of right is madly in love with me and she's too kind and too good to be cheated on. Sex with her was different from sex with him. It's a real different experience and for me it's not right to even compare.

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