Sad to hear that, at least you were not r**ed. My girlfriend (now wife) went back east to visit her cousin one summer. Her cousin invited her to a party at someone's house. She got separated from her cousin, long story short, some one slipped something in her drink. When she came to she was in the back seat of a car and some guy was fucking her. He was saying "Oh yes baby-girl!" and she could feel the wetness of his cum down her leg. She tried to fight him off but there was another guy standing outside the car and he and the first guy held her down while the 2nd guy fucked her and came in her too. She had been a virgin up to that point. They left her there, alone and crying when her cousin finally found her. The guys were long gone and her cousin said she had no idea who they were. My wife was only 16 at the time. We were married for several years before she confessed this to me. It was fortunate she did not get pregnant or catch a disease. You should not feel shame as you did nothing wrong but trust some girls.
Cousin woke up in the mens room of a bar. She had been drugged and pulled in there. From the vids shome passed around she was screwed by many men who came in there, found her bent over the toilet passed out. They just got what they wanted and left her there. Some used condoms, some just went to her