This is my first confession and I know we're supposed to be anonymous but anyway my names Richard. let me start by saying that i am now happy with my gf and no longer worry about my past. I have really bad ex's and made some bad choices and might have to submit several stories but for now Im just see how this goes. Well i moved from the city to the county side of Minnesota around late 2006. when i finally came back to my old school in walker i fell for my fourth grade crush. im not gonna say their full names so lets just call her suzie. anyway suzie liked me or atleast thats what i thought, being in the 7th and not too good at dating or even flirting, i failed badly.

so i just faced the music that i couldnt get the girl of my dreams at the time, so i started looking for a different girl that was a little more down to earth. Its only highschool so of course i wasnt looking for real or serious love yet, like i even knew what love was back then. So after basic teen dating stuff like hanging out after school, flirting in class, or even fucking that young(its bad, i know) but i didnt realize that rissa really, really liked me. i literally had no idea and rissa if your reading this im sorry. So after missing out on a good girl i also messed up on other things that really messed up my life till now.

One of the main things i fucked up on is that i focused on girls and friends more than school(and believe me, it really messed up my life, i even dropped out). but anyways i ended up dating this really bad girl, she's named after weed so lets just call her mj, but back then she wasnt as bad as she is now and she fucked up a couple of my relationships. After awhile i realized what she was really like and we broke up after a couple months of "on the low" dating. and after i was single again i tried so hard to get suzie, i even got my lip pierced and when she saw it she said "Daaamn" so i thought hell yea she's liking me now, even though she probably wasn't. Still did get to be with her, so i was hanging out with my bro dame, and we was at basket ball court after school and thats the first time i saw sel. i asked dame who she was and he said she was kinda weird but not in a bad way. so i started flirting with her in the classes we had together, i thought she was really hot.

Sorry if my story ends up really long. but anyways after awhile i gave up on suzie and just focused on sel and she was liking me so one night i got her number and called her and we talked on the phone for a couple hours. before we was done talking i asked her if she had a bf and she said no, so i asked her if she wanted one and she got really quiet and said yea in a nervous voice lol. We actually dated in the past but it was one of those middle school dates where we never say a word to each other but was still "dating" but now that we were older and actually did do stuff as a couple and really fell in love, or what i thought love was.

Again sorry for the lack of "sex confessions" but this is what i been through, and im not trying to make it about just a first love story. but anyways i finally had a real gf now, and we was doing good until i found out she was a virgin. I know most guys would love that but i didnt because i heard its really painful for a girls first time, and i didnt want to hurt her. so instead of rushing into it like most people, i told her we can just take it slow. she said i was her first real boyfriend(bf) and i was proud of that because i knew she dated some assholes before. But after awhile she did want to have sex but i told her i didnt want to hurt her all, but i gave in and said ok we can and we was supposed to after a school dance but it got messed up and her mom picked her up, she called me and said she was sorry and i told its ok.

so we talked for a couple hours till her mom fell asleep and we kinda had phone sex, i was telling her how i was gonna go slow and gentle and she kinda moaned softly and then the rest of the night we was talking soft and seductive and she was tellig me how much she wanted it and how long she wanted it. Then it hit me that i should of just put it in her because pain dont last forever. so the next week i was at dames house which is just a couple blocks from her house, she told me to come over and hang out for a bit. so as i was heading dame was laughing and teasing me saying "damn, my homeboy gonna finally hit it" lol. so i got to her house and she was the only one home and i was so nervous because it was gonna finally happen. i knocked on the door, and she rushed to open it and she was kinda mad because i was like an hour late. i hugged her and her skin was so soft and warm, being in Minnesota everyones always in sweaters.

so we went to her room, watched a movie and the sun was going down. so we got closer and laid on the bed, i held her and kissed her while she grabbed on my belt trying to get it off. i told her to lay back, then i started kissing her stomach and tickled her, her laugh was so cute. i unbuttoned her pants and pulled them off, i started kissing her thighs. Then she asked if i could go down on her so i did and i could tell she loved it, then i got up and started taking my clothes off and she came closer and started licking my D, i grabbed the back of her head and she started sucking it. I pushed her on the bed, held her hands down, started kissing her and rubbed her clit. Soon as i was about to put it in we heard her mom pull up and we rushed to get dressed and i went out back the door.

I got back to dames house and he to me to come check out her myspace page and she posted "GOT SOME" lol even though she was still technically a virgin. The next day at school she kept telling me that i need to come over again, and we tried to. We really did have something special between us but it ended because mj started to get all jealous and went around saying i fucked her and soon as sel heard that she started crying and i wasnt there to tell the truth because i was with my grandma in Bemidji. Dame told me what happened but it was already too late, sel had tiff call me and told me sel wanted to break up. Long story short, depression hit me hard. I stopped hanging out with friends, I didnt really get outta the house, and my grades started dropping. 2009 was the worst year of my life...

After a long time I got over it, and started hanging out with friends again. I went to kay's house more often and his sister(st) started liking me. So me and kay became closer bro's but sometimes he was with his gf so i'd just hang out with st till he got home. After awhile i noticed how flirty st was so i flirted back alot. One time their house got messy from a party the night before and i came over to help clean up and kay took off with his gf so if was just me and st there. she had two friends sleeping on the couches. we was almost done cleaning and she sat down and it was late, like around 2am. and i was grabbing some dirty dishes on the table in front of her and she smacked my ass and started laughing and soon as she got up to go to the bathroom i grabbed her ass and she smiled just big. the lights were off and her friends were kind of awake but they were on their phones all night.

the house was finally cleaned up and st sat down at the couch next to my chair, and she kept reaching back for my hand and i would rubbed her neck and play with her hair. kay got home and we took off but st and her friends wanted to come with so we all walked around for hours and talked about the dumbest stuff but it was fun. the whole time me and st kinda stayed in the back of everyone and when no one was looking we would touch on eachother and get just flirty. she grab my D while i rub her ass and the whole night was like that. she really made me feel better after my break up, but i didnt want a gf just yet and she knew what i was going through and she was cool with it. Then one night me, st, kay, and her friend was playing truth or dare in the front room with the lights off. it was me and st against kay and dee, we played it a different way than the original way.

Me and st was on the couch against the wall and kay and dee was on the other. The game ended up to be all dares lol. kay dared st to kiss me and we never did yet so she was nervous, so i grabbed her neck and slowly pulled her closer and she kissed so amazing. The room was so dark and it was like all of us was just waiting for the next dare because the dares kept getting more dirty. Then st dared dee to grab kay's dick and dee dared st to grab mine. The game kinda stopped but the teams didnt. i dont really remember what kay and dee were doing but all i know is that i wanted to fuck st so hard and she wanted me to. kay was making dee laugh by dryhumping her and st put my hand in her pats and i fingered her while she kissed my neck. We've been doing this for about a half hour and i heard kay whisper to dee to suck his dick, and dee breaking the silence said "i dare you to go to the back room" so st got up, giggled and pulled me to her room. i heard kay's zipper opening as we walked to her room lol.

I shut the door behind us and st layed me down, got on top of me and we started making out instantly. i remember us trying to be dead silent because her mom works in the morning and her room is right next to us. So being as quiet as we could, i got on top and basically ripped her shirt off. she yanked on my pants trying to get them off, she got them down but not all the way. she took off her leggings and i pulled her thong down with my teeth, i pulled her closer and licked her boobs and slowly put my dick in her, she started to moan so i cover her mouth. The room was completely dark and i couldnt help but think of what it would of been like to have had sel like this. Trying to not think about her, i just went hard on st because its been along time since the last time i had sex. I remember i wanted to cum inside her so bad, and even if i could the memories of sel wouldn't have let me. We only got to have sex for an hour though, but it was worth it.

When we was done me and st came back in the front room and kay and dee was in his room still. The sun was coming up and I was laying on the couch and st was laying on top of me, kinda romantic watching the sunlight get brighter outside. I still had a bad, kinda guilty feeling that this moment should of been with sel, but either way st was a really good person and great friend and the fact we just had sex made this moment special anyways. The sun was up, everyone was tired and i should of been home by now. So I hugged st and kissed her before i took off, and when i got home i found that sel left a voice mail... she didnt say much but she still sounded sad and she was still convinced that i hooked up with mj. I didnt even call her back because i knew she would of never believed me anyways.

For weeks I wasn't sure about anything anymore. Should i try to get sel back? should i try to date st? but what would happened with me and kay if me and his sis had a bad break up? or even if i did get sel back, would st get hurt by that? Maybe staying single was the best thing. Turns out i couldn't be with st anyway, she had a bf... i still hang out with kay and st but knowing that she had a bf just made it weird, man I thought she was single to. School started again and sel transferred schools, all my friends dropped out one after the other. Couple years pass and I met my gf at this point, im sure some readers might be disappointed in my confession or others may think its a fantasy or fiction story but no. This really happened to me and like I said earlier this is my story and its not all of it.