I know what I'm doing and what my confession is would destroy my life my marriage and shatter my husband. Some time ago I almost a year now I started doing cocaine.

At first I could afford my habit. I wasn't spending much money and my husband never knew it was gone. That didn't last long and I had to figure out a way to make my drug money.

So I started selling myself for the money. The first time I did it I remember sitting in my car afterwards crying. Wondering what was I doing. I felt so dirty. But I made enough money for my fix. After I calmed down I went to my connects house bought my coke and went home. I should have stopped then. But I couldn't. A few days later I was out selling myself again.

I tried walking the streets a few times but that wasn't for me. So I bought a cheap phone my husband doesn't know about and started taking clients. My husband is gone from about 6:30 am till around 7 pm mon-Fri so I have alot of time alone. As soon as he leaves I do a fat line and turn on my private phone and start my day. I see at least 3 clients a day go buy my coke and go back home
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At first I tried using condoms but most guys didn't like that so now I'm on birth control too. My husband doesn't know that either. He wants children.

I dress up but where my next address is . If its uptown I dress lil I'm going to work at a office or something. If its in a bad area I dress slutty.

I've had sex with old men ,young men, mostly married. I've been with married couples and married women. I've been paid to have sex with multiple men and by multiple I mean more then 2 at once . Up to 5 guys at once one time. My ass has been fucked so much I'm as used to having a cock in it as I am my mouth and vag. a I even got paid alot of money one time to have it with a dog. I didn't like it and thought it was gross but the money was to good to say no to.I have a gf I call if I need her for a threesome . I have toys with me incase that's what the guys into.

I've been video taped a few times that I know of and probably a few times I don't know about . I'm sure I'm on some amature porn site somewhere. I think I'm addicted now as much to the sex as I am the cocaine that I let get me to this point.

So this morning I did a fat rail. I already been with one of my clients. I'm sittn here with some time to kill before my next appointment. Lining up a rail on my dash board. Then I'm going to go suck another new cock and get fucked .After that I'm going to my dealers house then back home get cleaned up before my husband shows up.

I know I need help and I need to stop . I just can't or I'm not ready to. I don't know how much longer my marriage will survive my drug habit or all the sex I have to pay for it.